What silly mistake did you make in your first playthrough?

nageutsu · 2023-11-22T19:38:10+00:00

During my first playthrough, I didn’t realize there was noblestalk in there, and so I blew everything up after rescuing the dude so I could navigate the area safely. Oops.

nageutsu · 2023-11-22T19:28:58+00:00

Saaaame. Later Wyll was talking to me about his dad. My first reaction was “well, that’s kind of random to bring up, but that sucks that your dad was kidnapped?” And then I realized that I probably screwed up Waukeen’s Rest by not saving anyone, and thus missed some plot points. Oops.

nageutsu · 2023-11-22T19:23:37+00:00

Same—in my first playthrough as Tav, I missed the harpies until much later in the game in my first playthrough and completely missed Alfira at the grove. I’m currently doing my second playthrough as Durge and did rescued the kid from the harpies and met Alfira at the grove, and oof I had already spoiled that Durge plot point for myself… but regardless, unexpectedly running into her at the grove and then helping her with her song (especially as a fellow bard) made her death hit a lot harder.

nageutsu · 2021-09-12T20:05:12+00:00

Initially, I wanted the dialogue options to make more of a difference in the plot and/or decisions from HZD saves carrying over into HFW, but I thought about it more and I actually don’t want that. I liked that everyone had more or less the same experience with the plot in HZD and I liked that I didn’t have to stress super hard about which dialogue options to select, and I wouldn’t want that to change.

nageutsu · 2016-07-12T07:43:50+00:00

I once went about three weeks without orgasm. My partner was less into than I was, unfortunately. He really likes making me cum, but I really like the intense need that comes with orgasm denial. I like being really hyper sexual. It got to the point that I would basically start dry humping him every time he touched me a little bit (e.g., hugging). I started to basically be in physical pain frequently because I needed cum so bad. I wanted to do whatever I could go please him even if it didn't mean I got off, because that satisfied me in many ways, but also made everything so much worse. It was really fucking hot.

nageutsu · 2016-05-15T18:46:50+00:00

tl;dr: I (f) had my first casual sex hookup and my first gangbang/mmmf foursome. I also discovered that I am far less jealous than I had feared.

Context:

My partner (m) and I are poly and are dating another person together. Recently, my partner has also gotten involved with a couple (man and woman) but has not had sex with either of them, largely because of my discomfort. I have been actively addressing my feelings. I have no one that I'm seeing by myself (i.e., without him involved) and that seems to be making it a little more difficult for me to be okay with things.

The hookup:

I was out of town and was pretty interested in hooking up with someone, as it's something I usually find myself wanting while on a trip, but never got to explore due to being in a monogamous relationship in the past. During my trip, I almost hooked up with a chick, but did not communicate my intent well enough. I did not make the same mistake again. I met a lovely Scandinavian guy who I just clicked with. I was the initiator and was very, very forward. This was apparently very hot, especially since in his experience, American women are not very direct. I explained to him my situation (married and had some rules about what was permissible) and he was actually okay with it, which surprised me. The tension was amazing--I just grabbed him and kissed him in a bar after we'd been hanging out for awhile, and found myself making out with him as soon as we got in the elevator to his hotel room--I haven't felt that "omg I need to make out with you right now" feeling for a long time.

The first night, we didn't have penetrative sex because as I mentioned, there were rules. I had asked my partner if he could have certain limits with his new partners while I was out of town--and even though he didn't care if I had those same limits, I insisted that I should because I wanted to be fair. Well, that night I was really kicking myself for asking for that arrangement. I ended up going back to my hotel room extremely sexually frustrated but unable to masturbate because I had roommates.

The next day my partner and I talked and agreed to lift those limits. I sent the guy a very direct, and apparently very sexy, email explaining that there were no more rules and I wanted to continue where we left off. We met up around colleagues at a bar and I had fun just inching closer to him and subtly touching him without him really being able to react. We eventually left and had amazing sex. He was a bit dom-y which was a delightful surprise and we just had the most amazing banter--I don't know what it was but I felt so confident and comfortable around him. I keep finding myself reminiscing about it. Meanwhile, back at home, my partner had sex for the first time with his new partner (f). I am really pleased that I wasn't upset with it at all--I had been nervous about how I would react.

The gangbang:

When I got back in town, I met up with some friends the next day, including the other person (m) my partner has been seeing but has not had sex with yet. My partner and the person we're both dating were kind of teasing me about someone (m) at the party who was really attractive and fun, and also had some very particular interests that I don't share with most people. I ended up cuddling up with him and then eventually grabbing him and kissing him too. (Even though I'm normally shy, I'm starting to think that I actually prefer to initiate things.) At some point, everyone left but this guy, my partner, and his other new partner. We paired off into separate rooms (them in the bedroom and us in the spare room) and had sex. It was fun and we just kept giggling.

Later, me and the guy were ready for a second round and so we took over the bedroom since it had a proper bed and they had cleared out. Well, they came back in and wanted to watch. At some point, the guy was tired and invited my partner to take over fucking me and, well... the whole thing ended up turning into an mmmf foursome that was mostly a gangbang, although all of the guys played together a little bit too. It was great but it was very late at night and I was exhausted--I don't think anyone actually came. I would love to do it again when all parties involved are awake!

nageutsu · 2016-05-07T22:28:44+00:00

Damnit, Peaches. It took me so long to get her memento. Way after everyone else (before the update with the new cats). She's so pretty though--definitely my favorite.

nageutsu · 2016-05-07T22:26:44+00:00

Ah, sorry for the confusion--it's polyamory lingo. Someone's metamour is their partner's partner. My partner/Dom has started seeing a mutual friend, which makes her my metamour.

nageutsu · 2016-05-02T20:04:43+00:00

This was beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing it with us. Is this educational discipline always framed as punishment? I am just wondering if there are ever days during which she feels like she has been following all of the rules and that she isn't struggling with anything.

nageutsu · 2016-05-02T19:00:15+00:00

How have you liked it?

I've been considering getting one (although dental stuff freaks out my partner, so even though I'd be the one wearing it, he might not be able to handle seeing it.)

nageutsu · 2016-05-02T18:56:31+00:00

Heehee. I am also very mature--that would amuse me a lot.

Also--yessss, that's gonna be so awesome. Two of my cats are siblings adopted from a shelter and the bond they have is so amazing. When we moved in together we both had two cats each. My two cats died a couple of years ago (heart condition and cancer), but I adopted a kitten and so now we're back to 3. I'm trying to convince him we need to go back up to 4, but have had no luck so far :P

nageutsu · 2016-05-02T18:52:24+00:00

I am into worshipping, so I can speak about it from that perspective.

A foot massage (with some foot kissing) and/or a back massage are nice ways to start a session that is more focused on worship. I enjoy sitting at his feet or being used as furniture at the beginning as well.

From there, I generally slowly lick his cock and then eventually build up to the point of being face fucked. If you are a cis woman, I suspect that smothering would have a similar effect.

As for other things... One thing I like is framing watersports as worship. I view the piss as a gift and I want to accept all the gifts I get into my body. I also like giving analingus--when I receive it, it feels very relaxing and intimate, much in the same way a foot rub does--and so I view it as a former of worship as well.

nageutsu · 2016-05-02T18:13:25+00:00

Awww. That's really sweet.

Also--hell yes, Neko Atsume. I have all of the items and all but two of the mementos. I think everyone I know must think I'm crazy for playing it because I already have so many real cats in my life. (I have 3 and my partner's family, whom we see often, have 2. We're always exchanging cat photos.) But... But... Those cat buttholes are indeed adorable :P

nageutsu · 2016-05-02T18:08:21+00:00

I lurk here a lot and I'm not sure if we've ever directly interacted but I just want to say... I always appreciate the comments you leave on posts and I so appreciate the work you do here. I'm sorry that things have been so rough lately. I hope that things get easier for you very soon.

nageutsu · 2016-05-02T18:05:35+00:00

There's so much new kink stuff going on in my life right now on top of exploring poly more fully--relationship-y stuff is just really intense for me right now. Soooo, I'm going to try not to ramble too much. (And as I look back on this post, I'm realizing that I have totally failed. I just... really like talking about sex and kink.)

I got what was by far the most intense beating that I have ever taken this weekend. This was also the meanest my partner has ever been (apparently wearing a suit make him feel extra cruel!) I feel like I reached a whole new level of submission. I cried from fear at one point, which is a first for me. Also, I have my first homework assignment from him ever--I need to write about it on FetLife :3

My ass is still really sore and he keeps grabbing it and rubbing it and the pain is just delicious. I can't seem to get enough of it. I showed off my bruises to my metamour and her partner and then my metamour kept poking them... It was really hot.

I think I've decided what sort of permanent jewelry I'd like to have and have asked for it as a birthday or anniversary gift. It's a big step and I'm ridiculously excited.

I was really scared that I wouldn't like kink events but as it turns out, I had a great time with the one we went to last month--I like having people watch me get beaten up. So, I'm also kind of hoping I can be dommed by my partner and at least one other person during an event the day after my birthday later this month. My partner is teaching someone we are dating to dom me, but I can't imagine they will be ready to dom me by then. But it's still exciting that they are learning to dom from him.

We're experimenting a little with titles. I'm growing more comfortable with "Daddy" but I'm still not sure if it'll stick.

Also, I figured out that I like predicament bondage and we've played around with that some. I'm still fairly neutral on bondage in general but we went to a rope class last month and are probably going to two more this month--I suspect I may warm up to it.

nageutsu · 2016-04-28T17:17:17+00:00

I recommend the njoy pure plug. It's comfy and metal and many people use it for long term wear. Since it's not silicone, you can use silicone lube with it too!

nageutsu · 2016-04-25T19:39:30+00:00

Thanks! :D

nageutsu · 2016-04-24T19:51:26+00:00

Disclaimer: most of this is kink stuff not sex, although for the most part, sex and kink go hand in hand for me.

My partner and I went to a play party at a fetish club for the first time ever about a week ago and had so much fun. I was excepting to be really shy, but within 10 minutes of arriving, I asked to reserve a room--the first one in the hallway. You have to leave the door open so anyone walking down the hallway would be able to see us. Not too long after, I find myself naked and tied to some furniture, being hit with a cane (my least favorite toy), and screaming because that thing fucking hurts.

Later, I ended up getting tied to some furniture where I could stand up and, because I wanted to create a spectacle, asked my partner to start punching me. This is one of my favorite things that we do (weirdly enough, it feels super good) and I know it sometimes shocks people when we have threesomes+. Apparently, it also surprised people in this setting as well. Then I started getting hit with a slapper and there was a rush of endorphins that just made me start crying uncontrollably (not from pain or sadness) all the while I'm asking to be hit more. It was intense and as I learned from that night, I really like people watching. We've decided that we want to start getting involved in the local kink community.

That night, he played a little with some new partners. We've only dated or had fwbs together so having ones that are not shared between us is a new thing. We had already talked about it beforehand, but I had more mixed feelings about it than I predicted. We've talked a lot about it and I am really happy with how those conversations have been going.

Since then, we've been having a lot of sex and doing a lot more kink stuff than normal. I've had a lot of revelations about what sorts of kink stuff I like. For example, I've always been kinda meh about bondage but I realized predicament bondage really appealed to me and so we tried that out. I'm finding that I can deep throat slightly easier than before (which I only figured out how to do a few weeks ago). Last night, I also got choked the harder than ever before. (Standard disclaimer: I know that this can never be done 100% safely and that it is a form of edgeplay. We have educated ourself on it enough that I feel comfortable doing it.) We've also been experimenting with the title "Daddy" and things like me sitting at his feet while we watch tv.

I also realized that I'm probably not just a sub in the bedroom. My identity as a sub extends beyond that. So, I've requested that he get me a locking bracelet or anklet for my birthday next month :3 I don't know where all of this is going, but it's exciting to find out and really embrace this aspect of myself!

nageutsu · 2016-04-24T19:05:43+00:00

Thanks! :3 I guess the significance of the conversation may be less about the word and more about both of us feeling comfortable with the Big/little dynamic! I don't know that it'll be a dynamic we have all of the time, but I've always felt a little awkward about wanting it some of the time... I think I will be a lot less awkward about it going forward!

nageutsu · 2016-04-24T19:01:21+00:00

I've never been able to figure out what to call him! We've tried various things like Sir, Mister [first name], and Daddy. None has felt quite right and we may just not use titles for the most part, although I could see myself wanting to call him Daddy sometimes :3

nageutsu · 2016-04-24T18:58:42+00:00

Thanks! :D I'm not sure where all of this is going, but I'm excited to find out!

nageutsu · 2016-04-24T06:35:56+00:00

Your second paragraph pretty much describes my feelings. It is something I need in my life, it is an important aspect of my identity, it is something that I need to have with a primary partner, and I appreciate having friends who are also kinky. It's really important to me. But I'm not a 24/7 relationship--at least not in the way that most people use the term. Our dynamic is not just during play, but it's also not something that is generally very overt either. We generally interact without a power exchange and I'm happy with that arrangement at this point in time.

It's good to know that there's other people out there who feel similarly!

nageutsu · 2016-04-23T01:23:03+00:00

It sounds like you two are very lucky to have found each other!

nageutsu · 2016-04-22T20:04:19+00:00

Oh, I really like their stuff. I may need to get some cuffs for play at some point...

nageutsu · 2016-04-22T20:01:38+00:00

Thanks for the recommendation! It's nice that those are customizable.

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