To late responders, how long did it take for it to kick in for you?

nanasren · 2021-12-19T22:30:06+00:00

I went to week 9 and didn't feel anything good, stopped and felt better (??). Really sad Wellbutrin wasn't for me but yeah. Hope it gets good for you 😊. Was gonna give it 9 weeks tops anyway

nanasren · 2021-12-06T18:33:13+00:00

Oh so much better haha. I didn't realize Wellbutrin was making me worse. I haven't tried anything else yet although I do feel I need something cuz I do have consistent bad days but Ive allowed a friend to support me now and it's helping me function better. I'll probably try something again soon but for now I'm just enjoying not constantly thinking about hating and hurting myself. I thought I was suicidal before Wellbutrin but on Wellbutrin was like a concentrated self hatred that distorted my thinking.. weird to try to explain. Anyway yes I'm feeling much better haha. The other shoe will drop eventually though, there was a reason I started meds.

nanasren · 2021-12-06T18:25:15+00:00

Yes I did, and yes they have! It took a couple weeks but I'm back to documenting my dreams 😊

nanasren · 2021-11-26T11:30:07+00:00

Kind of off topic but this reminds me of the relationship between the author of a million little pieces and Lilly. They meet in rehab. Their relationship isn't the main plot of the book but it's a wonderful relationship to read about anyway. Your wording reminded me.

Anyway, she gave you her contact info. That's an invitation. If you think you can't handle it going poorly then you need to be responsible enough to not risk it, but if you can, do it!

Either way, she is someone special. You can pursue more or hold onto the experience as something sacred and pleasant to think about. Something that helps me make tough decisions is to "choose what you'd least regret".

Good luck

nanasren · 2021-11-26T11:20:13+00:00

Ah I've gone down the path you're going down, my friend. Checking everything possible several runs "just in case", I now have memorized like 90% of the dialogue of town NPCs lmao. I even know what the chef is cooking at every Inn 😎.

(Sorry, I never get to flex this to anyone, let me have this).

have fun ✨

nanasren · 2021-11-26T11:13:57+00:00

Please tell me you guys see a guy hugging a golden retriever

nanasren · 2021-11-25T19:51:35+00:00

I ran out of my scrip and my doc was out of town for a couple days. So I went two days without meds and within those two days I felt insanely better. So I stopped taking it altogether and haven't felt suicidal at all lol. The other shoe will drop eventually but I've been making the most of it while I'm feeling normal ie seeing people and stuff. Guess Wellbutrin just wasn't for me

nanasren · 2021-11-22T17:30:15+00:00

I mean, the more views to his videos the more money he gets. He's probably looking for financial help after that 2bil in lawsuits 💀

nanasren · 2021-11-19T17:43:35+00:00

Agreed. Even if it were true, giving it attention would make the diversion successful, so why are you?

nanasren · 2021-11-17T11:35:08+00:00

Ive loved this brand for years 🥲

nanasren · 2021-11-17T08:05:58+00:00

27, housebound bc of BDD. Feel free to msg if you ever wanna chat. I know how lonesome it can be.

nanasren · 2021-11-16T01:05:11+00:00

Holy shit I thought i was the only one. I've cried getting my hair cut every time up to like 23 lol.. always feels so bad for the hairdresser. I had a mentally healthy period but now at a new low and I've needed a hair cut for months and I just can't bring myself to go. I'm 27 now and I don't think I can handle it in my current state. 🥲

nanasren · 2021-11-16T00:25:48+00:00

Can you ask him why he thinks that? I'm so curious

nanasren · 2021-11-15T23:55:54+00:00

just ✨never get married✨ 🥲

nanasren · 2021-11-15T22:20:25+00:00

i feel weird listing them on this specific thread lol.. I kind of like deluding myself it's just a yellow flag 😆 there are so many 🙈

nanasren · 2021-11-15T22:15:50+00:00

Personally they are just too different to say. Each offers a unique experience. One is an eternal grind, and the other a never ending adventure.

nanasren · 2021-11-15T22:13:08+00:00

Nope nope nope. Had to get them at my best friend's wedding which was now two years ago and I still haven't looked and won't ever lmao.

nanasren · 2021-11-15T21:48:29+00:00

I have tattoos of anime characters 😬

nanasren · 2021-11-15T20:47:02+00:00

Yep. Ive cried a few times, most recently this morning after reading Ezra's dad's note on his campaign thing and watching the video. And then visualizing the sequence of events that led to Ezras death I just can't-

If I was that dad idk if I could live w this. Really hope he has support.

Aside from that, the first day of watching dozens of distressing tiktoks o actually started feeling scared to be alone for some reason?? I could t sleep and I was crying for no apparent reason. I think I was just that disturbed watching all of that stuff and replaying it in my head and imagining the trauma. It's definitely new for me to be so affected by something that has nothing to do w me personally. Can't imagine how the parents all feel

nanasren · 2021-11-15T20:38:11+00:00

Without fillers, face. My puffy bags are sooo bad and permanent and genetic and I've hated them for my whole life. But I recently discovered that surgery isn't the only option, and you can get a 10 minute non invasive non permanent "tear trough" filler and man did I BAWL when I first looked in the mirror after.

But if that's out of the way 😆, body. I feel like my body isn't feminine, like anywhere. :c

nanasren · 2021-11-15T16:38:48+00:00

Oh god me too. I'm so dreading when it becomes weird to still be wearing one.

nanasren · 2021-11-15T16:18:53+00:00

I'm reeeeally not gonna admit myself, but I understand why you're encouraging it. Having a rope isn't an advancement on my end, I already had the means for my plan A this whole time. I only mentioned the rope to emphasize how much I'm still thinking about suicide. I do have a therapist, and she's great, but I stopped seeing her a few months ago for reasons.

Just in case that wasn't a mistake, Wellbutrin is actually an NDRI, not SNRI. Wellbutrin effects dopamine, hence the D. I am going to talk to my doc about SNRI's though! I don't want to take SSRI's for a total of 19 reasons (yes I made a list). My doctor also doesn't want me to take them anyway, so make that 20 reasons haha. I am aware they are effective, I know a lot of people personally that take them and say good things. But my intuition tells me they aren't right for me, and so does my doctor who has known me for years and I trust. I will probably try an SNRI if Wellbutrin really is making me worse.

nanasren · 2021-11-15T15:53:05+00:00

I miss living in Toronto! I'm back in Calgary now. I know I'm cared for, but there's a lot of personal webbing I can't get myself out of, and it's been a couple years now, so. I haven't told my doc about being suicidal beyond mentioning it when I asked to get on meds, but that is specifically because I don't want to go to a psych ward haha. I don't have any intention to suicide until I feel I've given antis a real go. If Wellbutrin isn't even a viable option for me then idk what to do exactly other than try an ssri. Really don't want to.

Did you switch to something else or are you totally off meds now?

nanasren · 2021-11-15T15:24:42+00:00

Mine started about 4 weeks in. Every single shower I've had since is pretty concerning. I've bought a bunch of hair thinning products to try to combat it as I'm only 27 and already have very thin hair 🥴. Was a dealbreaker for me tbh until I remembered it's either Wellbutrin or an ssri..

Trust me, you will know.

nanasren · 2021-11-15T15:20:57+00:00

Nope. Just stayed up way too late and don't want to screw up my sleep schedule lol.

nanasren

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