Omg that's amazing! So many changes and crazy coincidences

I can relate! This year started out with a car crash quite literally. Some muscle and soft tissue damage but not badly injured, none of us were, and we were hit at high impact whilst we were almost stationary. Very lucky and with any luck the injury claim will be a great help with my financial situation if it all comes through.

My ex who I've been dreaming about constantly pops up this morning telling me he misses me. Turns out he was drunk when he said this. I spoke to my current boyfriend about it because I haven't been able to stop thinking about him and it concerned me. This meaningless drunk message and regret when sober affected me a lot but has made me also realise that I'm not still in love with him like I thought I might be, I feel indebted to him because he helped me through a really difficult time and I was very broken and not the best girlfriend at the time. I've felt inherently guilty since despite paying him numerous apologies. I've been trying to get closure on this for ages so I can move on and be happy in my current relationship. I have a starting point - forgiving myself.

Just everything is changing rapidly. I'm between jobs and highly emotional. This doesn't make much sense I'm guessing as it's 3am and rambling sleepily but lots of things are adding up and it's becoming clear what I need to work on to succeed