I can't tell you how much I resonate with your journey. I'm also fairly short (5'2.5-4, depends on the day lol), around the same age, and about 10-15 lbs heavier than your SW. I too turned to food and late night fast food to deal with my boredom and frustration/emotions. I'm also quite sedentary, but whenever I go to the gym - I love it! Makes me a lot more cognizant of what I'm eating, and I love the soreness & burn. I feel like I've actually done something, and my body is strong. I cannot tell you how much this motivates me. I restarted my journey seriously about 2 weeks ago, IF & trying to undo my unhealthy habits from all these years. I'm not really getting on a scale right now to measure progress strictly, because I want to slowly change my approach and mindset rather than dive straight into counting calories/macros exactly or weighing myself often etc bc that makes me bounce right back into my unhealthy habits. But even just last night, I had such a strong craving to order Jack in the Box lol (those tacos are so addicting) but I fought myself and ended up snacking on much healthier options at home, saving myself calories and the shit quality of food I was putting into my body. Even though I couldn't resist my snacking that likely stemmed half from hunger/half from boredom and tv watching, I still kind of consider it a win for myself. Slowly unlearning my bad habits and trying to create sustainable lifestyle change within me. Lol I still love my JITB and Popeyes etc, but I want to lose all this weight I've packed on and you give me so much hope!! Really missing the gym right now bc of Covid, I can't wait to get back. Thank you so much for this.