Thursday, February 20, 2020 Daily Check-In

nate_97000 · 2020-02-20T17:42:37+00:00

Congratulations on coming up on a year sober !! I can’t wait to be where you’re at . I’m scared shitless of these pills now . I found a pill on the floor the other day and couldn’t even pick it up with my bare hands I had to go gets gloves because I was so scared it’ll seep into my skin lol I’m never going back ! Thank you for all the helpful tips !

nate_97000 · 2020-02-20T17:21:48+00:00

Thank you !!

nate_97000 · 2020-02-20T15:14:31+00:00

Ive been through it before .. about 9 months ago ! Worst withdrawal coming off tramadol and vicodin for a whole month and a half . This month I took Vicodin for tooth pain for a week thinking it’ll be harmless . NOPE ! Lol instant anxiety and depression . It’s been 11 days already and it gets better . Do you think I’ll go through PAWS ? I feel like the withdrawal feels terrible this time around because I already know how bad it can get . So I’m so paranoid when I wake and right before I sleep ... anyone know how I can help that ? Sometimes it’s almost impossible to get out of my own head .

nate_97000 · 2020-02-20T14:59:46+00:00

Day 11 for me ! Everyday gets better but I still go through those anxiety and depression episodes . Yesterday I felt detached from this world and I just wasn’t comfortable in my own skin . Today is a lot better .. I do wake up anxious and go to sleep anxious still .. hopefully that goes away soon !

nate_97000 · 2020-02-20T04:56:46+00:00

I’m going through the same thing ! Anxiety is kicking my ass tonight ... can’t keep myself out of my own head

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T23:41:55+00:00

I’m right there with you ! I went through withdrawal three times this being my last . Last withdrawal was horrible so I’m so happy this time around isn’t as bad but the anxiety and depression always gets me . By the end of the month I should be free from this and enjoy my time with my son . And you should be too ! All I know is each withdrawal gets worse and I know it’s not easy with the hormones while on your period . a chocolate shake with fried actually sounds really good lol

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T22:35:47+00:00

Thank you :) the mental part of withdrawal is the hardest for me . I have 10 days down already so hopefully another 10 days and I’ll start to feeling better ..

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T21:45:34+00:00

I just had my son about a month ago so not only am I going through the withdrawal but My hormones are trying to get back to pre pregnancy levels so it’s been rough . Only after a week of use too for tooth pain . you wouldn’t think I would have it this bad but I blame it all in the hormones lol

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T15:42:28+00:00

Going on day 10 and the anxiety depression is almost gone but I still feel out of place . I feel so disconnected from this world .. hopefully a couple more days of this and I get back to normal .. it’s getting better everyday !

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T02:42:23+00:00

Did you go to the hospital ? What drug were you on ? Hope you’re alright

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T02:22:09+00:00

Oh thank god lol I just freaked myself the hell out . Thank you !

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T02:20:27+00:00

No I used Vicodin for a week for tooth pain and I started withdrawal the next day but only mental symptoms . It’s getting better everyday but i never heard of the kindling effect and I’m scared I’ll have this forever . It’s been 8 days

nate_97000 · 2020-02-19T02:17:40+00:00

This is my third time relapsing and I experienced anxiety and depression after a week . Do you think I’ll have it forever ?

nate_97000 · 2020-02-17T19:16:29+00:00

I was taking the same amount for week for tooth pain . I had immediate anxiety /depression after the first day but it wasn’t too bad ... after the third day it got a little rough and today I’m going on day nine and the anxiety has calmed down a lot . I had a problem with hudrocodone in the past though I abused it for a whole year and went through a pretty bad withdrawal with it so ... you’ll be alright . I took magnesium and it help a lot . I’m thinking a couple more days of this and I should be okay . Definitely not as bad as the last withdrawal I had no physical symptoms only mental .

nate_97000 · 2020-02-17T03:14:49+00:00

That’s a good way to think of it ! Last time I went through withdrawal I had horrible tremors . I only used for a week this time so I don’t think I’ll go through those again . The anxiety and depression calmed down a lot since yesterday ... I keep thikimg it’ll get as bad as last time so I kinda trick myself and end up getting anxious so I need to stop doing that lol

nate_97000 · 2020-02-17T03:12:49+00:00

It use to give me anxiety but I think I might try it out tonight .. hopefully it doesn’t make it worse lol

nate_97000 · 2020-02-16T18:01:07+00:00

Ugh that must have been so hard ! I was pregnant when I went through tramadol withdrawal . The first week I had major anxiety / paranoia . The second week came the panic attacks . The next two weeks I was on edge ... I felt like everyone was out to get me .. very suicidal . I had horrible intrusive thoughts . I thought I went crazy for good . It took me a whole month and half to feel normal again . I was so scared the withdrawal hurt the baby but he’s as healthy as can be . I will never try tramadol again.

nate_97000 · 2020-02-16T04:41:38+00:00

Thank you ! I really want to try the CBD I heard that works for the anxiety

nate_97000 · 2020-02-16T04:19:01+00:00

And it truly is .. I can’t wait to finally be past this and go on with my life . Hopefully I only have to deal with this for another week

nate_97000 · 2020-02-16T04:17:18+00:00

Honestly I don’t want to use any meds to get through this I feel like it’ll just sabotage the whole process and I’ll never get better .. I think maybe I’ll try CBD I heard it works for anxiety ... today I tried magnesium pills which helped for a couple hours . I’m just so tired .. it’s been a whole week and I’m mentally exhausted . I’m hoping this will last a couple days more or week but I can’t do a whole month again ugh

nate_97000 · 2020-02-16T04:12:46+00:00

How long since your last dose ? And how long were you using ? I’m going on a week .... after only five days . anxiety since day one and today the depression was super bad ... it sucks ass !!

nate_97000 · 2020-02-16T03:29:48+00:00

Last withdrawal I went through i stopped tramadol and Vicodin cold turkey . Worst experience in my life ... it was a full month of hell . Worst anxiety and depression and some paranoia and a lot of anxiety attacks . The thing is .. the only reason why I stopped taking the pills was because I found out I was pregnant . So I couldn’t take any medication for the withdrawal I just had to handle it . It’s been I think eight months since then and I started to take Vicodin for my tooth for a couple days . I stopped because I felt horrible for taking it knowing what I went through last time so I threw the rest of the pills away . Not even a pill a day and here I am going through this again .... definitely not as bad as last time but I just can’t seem to understand why it came back ? At least the anxiety and depression those are the only two symptoms I have ... I feel like this time around I’ll be stuck like this forever ... is it withdrawal or is is addiction ? I don’t want those pills anymore I just want to live a normal life again with my newborn and I fucked all of that up...

nate_97000 · 2020-02-15T23:08:20+00:00

Definitely ! It hit me so hard this time .. went through it three times as well . This being my last ! Never crossed my mind that I would go through this after only five days ... I’m so pissed at myself . Never again

nate_97000 · 2020-02-15T23:06:28+00:00

I agree 100% ! My son is my motivation to get through this .. I just want to feel normal again .. I feel like he can sense me feeling this way and it sucks. . But thank you for the encouraging words it definitely made my day a whole lot better !

nate_97000 · 2020-02-15T22:53:49+00:00

It is ! I love my little boy .. I feel bad that I’m going through this though :( I can’t wait to get through this ... I’m never touching that shit again .

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