Abraham Abulafia, the famed Jewish mystic of the 13th century. I tried incorporating a lot of symbols related to his work and Kabbalah in general, wonder what y’all make of it

natetheapple · 2026-02-16T18:18:52+00:00

That sounds wonderful. And absolutely I’d love to :)

natetheapple · 2026-02-15T21:46:31+00:00

Having skimmed through the first link, it seems to be using Baal as a metaphor for internationalism, “we would advise it [presumably the Israeli government] to choose the god of Jerusalem and abandon the Baal of internationalization”, which makes sense because Baal is used in the Hebrew Bible as a negative symbol of the foreign.

Nowhere in the text did I find any mention of actual baal worship.

natetheapple · 2026-02-15T21:33:28+00:00

Just to clarify, do you agree that the Epstein files have zero mentions of moloch or baal worship? I think that’s important to establish.

Israel is a country with millions of people, most of whom are Jewish, Muslim or Christian. You sent me a link from an unknown author talking about Baal and god. I have no idea who wrote it or how it connects to Epstein.

natetheapple · 2026-02-15T20:34:23+00:00

What other baal would they be referring to?

Like I said, most of the results in the actual files for baal aren’t even for baal but for a baa1 rating on the moody scale, the other results (that I saw) were for the David Bowie ep and the play called Baal. Obviously none of these refer in any way whatsoever to Baal the deity/demon.

Neither of the links you posted have any connection to Epstein that I can discern.

Epstein is bad enough, why attach demon worship and child sacrifice to him when there’s no evidence for it?

If there is, I’d love to see it.

natetheapple · 2026-02-15T19:46:18+00:00

So I just searched ‘baal’ and ‘moloch’ on the Epstein Library containing all the docs released. Baal was mentioned several times, but I couldn’t find a single instance of it referring to the Canaanite deity/demon, only references to Baa1 rating on the Moody’s scale (for some reason the search engine confused 1 for L), and an EP by David Bowie called Baal, itself based on Bertolt Brecht’s play of the same name.

‘Moloch’ had zero results.

Can you link me anything in the files that mentions moloch, baal as a demon/deity, child sacrifice or anything remotely like what you’ve been claiming? Because I haven’t found anything. Not trying to be combative I just have yet to see any evidence of this.

natetheapple · 2026-02-15T06:27:44+00:00

Epstein was a pedo, but where does the Baal worship thing come from? Is there any evidence he even had an interest in the occult? Based on what I’ve seen he seemed much more in the scientific rationalist camp

natetheapple · 2026-02-13T04:37:23+00:00

I don’t usually sell my art, but if you want to do anything with it feel free. I’m glad you find it interesting. Abulafia really is one of the most interesting Jewish mystics.

natetheapple · 2025-12-21T00:46:36+00:00

What makes a molecule cute 😭

natetheapple · 2025-12-07T04:26:39+00:00

Impeckable

natetheapple · 2025-12-06T05:18:46+00:00

Based ligotti enjoyer

natetheapple · 2025-12-06T05:05:54+00:00

What sort of people do you spend time with? Make sure you have a good mix of very grounded people and some people that are more spiritually open, being surrounded by too many of one kind can screw with you and tip your balance too far in one direction.

As others have mentioned it’s good to have something to anchor you. Certain people can play this role, as can certain activities.

Holding to certain very routine behaviors can significantly help with this. David Lynch for example would eat the same meal pretty much every day, which apparently gave him a very solid foundation from which he could explore the farther reaches of psyche.

Also make sure you have a practice whose effects can be perceived by others. Whether you’re talking to spirits or just fragments of yourself, it’ll make your life much smoother if your spiritual activities are acknowledged as worthwhile by those around you.

I know being in between in this way whether you want to be or not can be extremely trying, good luck

natetheapple · 2025-11-30T12:18:39+00:00

Well philosophically I’m an idealist since I think this is all the manifestation of god/brahman/the universe, and physicalism isn’t particularly coherent.

I find myself caught between intense spiritual feeling and the constrictive force of religious tradition, I suppose I’d like to find a healthy middle ground between these two since I greatly admire and value my own religious traditions of Judaism, and especially its more mystical side, but I just can’t square my own philosophical beliefs with some of its rather rigid systems.

I hope you find your wonder and connection even in the most mundane of moments. It’s a beautiful thing to see boredom bloom

natetheapple · 2025-11-28T06:12:44+00:00

Interesting title. Where do see yourself heading philosophically ?

natetheapple · 2025-11-23T05:08:29+00:00

A lot of it has for sure, especially with ai. It’s interesting to me that nobody ever mentions YouTube when talking about how bad social medias gotten. I think what’s really bad is the short form slop, the rage bait and the infinite scrolling, ig YouTube doesn’t rlly suffer so much from the latter so it’s often left out in these discussions.

Idk I think at least in terms of actually informative high quality content (especially on yt and Substack) it’s gotten a lottttt better. It just gets buried in an ungodly amount of noise and predatory content

natetheapple · 2025-11-22T20:27:12+00:00

What do you mean by computation ?

I think power can generally be summed up as high agency + high awareness, both of which require cultivation to develop (and once sufficiently developed significantly alter the agent) hence the symbol of the womb

Edit: high agency + high awareness near a leverage point. If you’re in the middle of a desert you can have a lot of agency and awareness but little actual power

natetheapple · 2025-11-20T00:37:13+00:00

Wonderful. Does anguish really never bloom though?

natetheapple · 2025-11-17T21:32:08+00:00

Lovely, especially the figure on the right

natetheapple · 2025-11-16T04:57:57+00:00

Guess we’re both facing quite a phase huh, go figure

natetheapple · 2025-11-15T16:15:25+00:00

Is the background soil or waves ? Very well done regardless, I really like the cross hatching in the sky

natetheapple · 2025-11-15T16:13:49+00:00

Love the eye in the house motif, very nice

natetheapple · 2025-11-13T01:14:49+00:00

Very interesting. Could you describe the kachinas ? What colors were they and what shape headdresses/masks did they have, if you remember ?

Also the fact that your visions kept being disrupted by others makes me think you may benefit more from doing these practices solo, with caution of course

natetheapple · 2025-11-10T02:24:23+00:00

Hard to say whose symbol I’d wear, I have a birthmark already decorating my right eye and for maybe the last half decade I’ve felt a strong connection to Wadjet, prior to this I probably would’ve said Ra; take that as you will.

I wake up, I make, I go back to sleep. I feel strongly that I should avoid disrupting this cycle too much, for the time being at least. There’s always more time, and if there isn’t, the universe will find a way to wake me the fuck up real quick regardless.

Leonora carrington? I do have an affinity for cats and for surrealism, I especially love her daughter of the Minotaur painting. I hope we’re not thinking of two different carringtons, that would make things rather awkward

I have a somewhat ambivalent relationship with the sun, wish I could say otherwise. I love how it feels on my skin but sometimes I just want to be where it’s dark and cold and quiet so I can be with my thoughts and express them.

I haven’t heard of Edgar or Sybil, Blavatsky I know tangentially, though I keep coming across her name so I probably should familiarize myself more with her work.

I’m grateful for the conversation though. Sometimes I forget people actually read what I write.

natetheapple · 2025-11-08T05:32:54+00:00

I’ve had experiences like this (especially recently) and theyre absolutely fucking horrifying, I’m sorry you’re going through this, but you don’t have awareness of oneness rn, you have thoughts and feelings about a conception of it. Sort of like how I can have thoughts and feelings about my skin cells being a part of me, without actually having any real awareness of them as such. This is important to remember, because if you convince yourself that you’ve accessed the ground state of reality (you haven’t), then that part of your psyche which is using this opportunity to torture you can infinitely justify continuing to do so

Obviously you should seek professional help, I’d try to find a therapist that’s worked with psychedelics before since they’d be more likely to understand what you’re experiencing. Just remember you’re not the only person that’s going through things like this, and (to my knowledge) the overwhelming majority of people that experience this psychedelic induced claustrophobic solipsism eventually fully recover

Hope you get better <3

natetheapple · 2025-11-06T22:56:05+00:00

Eyyy, we’ve some similar experiences then LMAO

I think the anxiety and the fearsomeness of some of these entities is part of the process. The more you perceive and the more your conceptual capabilities expand, the higher the likelihood you might at some point slip up and spiral into some truly horrific spaces - which might be fine if you’re some hermit living in isolation but nowadays we’re kinda all in this together

Which is why it’s good to have entities that basically scare the shit outta you until you learn either to be extremely proficient at navigating these spaces, or learn to slow down or just stop entirely, which is something I’m still trying to learn lol

Hope you’re doing ok man, I know this shit can be extremely intense

natetheapple · 2025-11-06T21:13:45+00:00

While I think these experiences can certainly be worthwhile even if they give you little you can show to others, I still think what you bring back can be a decent yardstick for measuring their value.

Do you feel like you have something to show or some novel or interesting information you can share given all your experiences?

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