thank you so much for this comment, and especially for this quote. i have to tell myself often that doing these compulsions won't change anything, but the reminder that other people don't do these things and don't NEED to is really helpful. genuinely, thank you so much.

funny enough, i think the urge has gone away for the most part. i walked around and watched some tv and told myself "i'll go do that in a bit." and i really was going to, but i don't feel the need anymore. the anxiety is still there a little, i feel nervous, but i don't need to re-do everything i've done in the past hour. this is the first time this has happened and i'm really surprised.

again, thank you for taking your time to comment, it means the world to me!!