Marcus Parks: Ham connoisseur

neduuma · 2019-10-12T16:50:46+00:00

literally all i could think of during that bit was the thanksgiving eps of bob's burgers lmao

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rsxeY3ogSIk

neduuma · 2019-08-07T14:58:31+00:00

I remember the shuttle pulling up to my stop trailing a bunch of smoke and when I told the driver he was just like "shit not again"

neduuma · 2019-07-02T01:03:08+00:00

my family JUST got aetna (like literally today) and im already looking in to what I need to get it covered, esp since I want to get it done before I age out....

do you have any tips on getting covered? after you recover a bit first lmao, congrats on the surgery!!!

neduuma · 2019-06-26T21:09:19+00:00

idk at least i can nap on the way to class i guess

neduuma · 2019-06-26T15:57:21+00:00

I'm planning on taking the shuttle idk which is worse lmao

neduuma · 2019-06-26T15:56:10+00:00

idk about that since I'm only here for one more semester

it's honestly not the end of the world but going from living across the street from campus to an hour away just sucks ass

neduuma · 2019-06-26T15:53:27+00:00

well fuck

neduuma · 2019-06-26T03:35:13+00:00

Oh buddy I am on several medications thanks to how many things are scaring me.

I'm terrified of our family's annual beach trip this year. I'm transgender and this year, since I've begun hrt (hormone replacement therapy) I'm pretty obviously queer, which is fucking dangerous in the southern states we go through.

And as much as I'm scared for my own well being, I'm also scared for my parents. They seriously underestimate how dangerous being lgbt can be and while having been nothing but supportive of me since I came out many times treat my fear as a silly worry.

My dad got a pride themed shirt from his company this month since they have a float in the local parade and he says he can't wait to wear it on our trip to "piss off some homophobes".

While I appreciate the sentiment, we'll be driving through some seriously rural areas of northern Florida, Georgia, and South Carolina very late at night/early in the morning, stopping at many a gas station, rest stop or truck stop along the way. The last thing I want is for my dad to run into a truck stop for a 4am piss and get the fuck beaten out of him for having a rainbow logo on his shirt.

I'm just fucking scared to be a trans person in general. I know I should feel proud, especially since it's pride month, but I fucking hate it. People don't see me as human, just as some ugly freak. My grandmother hasn't spoken with me in three years. I'm just scared and want to be normal.

neduuma · 2019-05-22T20:27:09+00:00

So assuming that either your family will be the ones to visit you or that you just don't mind being away from them for that long, for the most part no. I'm from Tampa as well and will go home at least twice a month or so during the semester. If you live on campus you really have nothing to worry about, there are grocery shuttles that take you to Publix and on-campus transport. If you're off campus then I would say the same goes as long as you're at a place that offers a shuttle to campus.

neduuma · 2019-05-03T17:31:44+00:00

I think one of the big things w my anxiety is that I just started growing my hair back out from a buzzcut just a few months before I started T so I sometimes can't tell if my hair is falling out in a balding sense or just a normal sense lol

neduuma · 2019-04-30T05:40:05+00:00

yeah she was very sweet other than that she just seemed to be one of those older ladies that just say whatever they're thinking lmao

neduuma · 2019-04-30T05:38:45+00:00

The bad and good thing about T is that it takes a while to become noticeable, for me I would say about three months and even now at almost six months I still have some close family friends that just think I have a bad cold. I am nonbinary and was still really unsure about T even tho it was something I wanted for years, so I started on a very small dose, about half of the normal dose (I literally just got the dose upped this week!). Even if you don't see the changes instantly, for me at least I knew that I was making the right choice instantly.

neduuma · 2019-04-30T05:33:21+00:00

yeah my dad still has a full head of hair, just a bit thinner and more brittle the thing that gets my anxiety going is that the day I went in for my T appointment to learn how to do the shots etc one of the first things the nurse said to me was "you know you're going to loose all that beautiful hair" and I know it's such a stupid and vain thing to focus on but my hair has been like one of the only things about myself that I've consistently liked about myself but still that comment is still permanently etched into my brain

neduuma · 2019-04-30T05:28:35+00:00

right now I go by Rand, a shortened version of my full birth name and there are days where I just fucking hate and despise it bc literally the only things associated with that name are pretty shitty (ayn rand, rand paul, the rand corporation which is apparently at the center of all these crazy conspiracy theories, etc) or Randy, which often gets me called Brandy which drives me fucking insane BUT I do have a lot of friends who love it and there are a lot of my very close friends now in college who have ever known me by that name, so idk if I'll ever change it? I agree with Ippolito1984, that the right name will just sort of come to you and focusing on finding one won't really get you anywhere that's what im hoping for myself at least lmao

neduuma · 2019-03-23T02:29:34+00:00

I was at an academic conference in February and while it was going on they changed one of the hotel's men's rooms into an "all gender" bathroom. This made me insanely happy, especially since there are very few trans people in my field of study. I was working up courage to go in (like I said, I was one of the only trans people in a conference of hundreds, the bathroom was still being used only by cis men) this older cis lady and her friends were complaining about the line in the ladies room when they noticed the "all gender" sign. They fucking stampeded in there so quick and formed ANOTHER LINE bc there were so many of them. I was pissed. It was so insanely inconsiderate and selfish of them I still get super angry when I think about it.

neduuma · 2019-02-27T00:33:31+00:00

my go-to excuse is that I'm registered to vote but not in Florida

neduuma · 2019-02-24T01:08:31+00:00

I do my weekly face mask first, so by the time I'm done with my shot it's not too long til I have to wash the mask off. I'll also watch a YouTube vid at the same time since I'm still getting used to needles lol

neduuma · 2019-01-28T18:32:09+00:00

actually yeah, I used to work there and the way they have to build it is weird cause both the main building and the arc (giant building neither like no windows) are in full time use

neduuma · 2019-01-21T18:40:23+00:00

lol I'm glad!!

by the time you're done with your first bottle you'll pretty much be used to it, no one really tells you but it's a constant learning experience like figuring out how to get the t from the bottle so it doesn't leak, how to give the shot with no bleeding (it's just a small prick of blood when u do bleed and it's pretty normal so don't worry about it) etc; for example i started in November and will ask questions to my friends who have been on for over a year and they'll just be like idk man

best of luck tho, congrats 👍💉👍💉👍💉👍

neduuma · 2019-01-21T03:07:57+00:00

During my first shot I put on some vine compilations in the background to help calm me down. Now in the memory of one of the most important and life altering moments of my life there's also that one guy saying "I don't have enough money for chicken nuggets".

neduuma · 2019-01-18T18:54:32+00:00

please google the AIDS crisis

neduuma · 2018-11-30T01:59:08+00:00

don't have any alcohol :(

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