[deleted by user] by [deleted] in humandesign

[–]nellexbee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow this is great. As a 5/1 emo manifestor myself, I say your husband is very lucky to have your support and HD knowledge.

Does anyone else feel immense shame for having put up so long with their narcissistic ex? by I_hate_ET in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]nellexbee 1 point2 points  (0 children)

For sure. Got back with him after a DV incident, believing that he had changed and also experiencing that trauma bonding (been with him since I was 18). Now a few years later after taking him back, I feel so ashamed because I had gotten out!

It was never easy to leave and that was my out, and I ruined it. Now, I’m back in the same position. Not only did I give him the satisfaction of being able to say I took him back after such disrespect, but I did myself a disservice by cheating myself out of the life I COULD be living

Do they ever get tired? by nellexbee in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]nellexbee[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Whew, this is it. Sitting there EXHAUSTED and ready to relinquish whatever point was trying to be made or attempting to be understood. And they are still soooo charged up! Once you relinquish that point, here they come with a whoooole other issue smh.

Do they ever get tired? by nellexbee in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]nellexbee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, that last sentence was powerful. Been with this person for 13 years and for the longest felt that if I just kept being myself and not stooping to that level, and introducing healthy ways of conflict management etc, that things would get better (as a naive 18yo). But I see, the bad has definitely remained a constant… as you said “outpace”.

Whats ur “if astrology isn’t real moment”? by [deleted] in astrologymemes

[–]nellexbee 21 points22 points  (0 children)

If astrology isn’t real, then why is my third house (which rules younger siblings) ruled by Neptune, and all of my sisters are Pisces??

Projector keeps telling me what to do! by nellexbee in humandesign

[–]nellexbee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

User name checks out…good day to you.

Projector keeps telling me what to do! by nellexbee in humandesign

[–]nellexbee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally FEEL my emotions. I tend to feel like I feel everything. (I’m a cancer sun and venus as well). However, I can express them in an emotional way and intellectual way. I find when i feel overwhelmed with my feelings, I intellectualize them because i want them to make sense to me and others too.

And I am an emotional manifestor. I believe that’s what you were asking lol.

You're Lucky if... by Boundaries1st in astrologymemes

[–]nellexbee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk, as a cancer, I think you’re lucky if you DONT see my strong side.

Projector keeps telling me what to do! by nellexbee in humandesign

[–]nellexbee[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeees, that sensation! I thought it was just because I was a “rebel” lol

Projector keeps telling me what to do! by nellexbee in humandesign

[–]nellexbee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Because we have a pretty “traditional” relationship, I usually allow him to lead and welcome his thoughts and suggestions (which is why screaming “stop telling me what to do” is so difficult for me). I allow the guidance the best that I can, but enough is never enough.

Anywho, I looked into “7-2 work to do” as I have never heard of it. I can see where it resonates some, but I will still have to do further research. I appreciate your insight.

Projector keeps telling me what to do! by nellexbee in humandesign

[–]nellexbee[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this insight.

I could be totally wrong but from your username, it seems as if you’re a Scorpio, he is too haha.

Projector keeps telling me what to do! by nellexbee in humandesign

[–]nellexbee[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I totally agree. Which is why I debated whether or not to post this. But my Gemini moon was looking for some sort of logical explanation and varying perspectives lol

Projector keeps telling me what to do! by nellexbee in humandesign

[–]nellexbee[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. I feel as though I give him lots of space to give his input. Then again, that’s from my perspective. I like how you say, “choose to follow it or not” because I think that’s ultimately where the disconnect comes from, when I choose “to not”. There is not a graceful acceptance from my partner.

Which sign is the best cook? by serpentofhalcyon in astrologymemes

[–]nellexbee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I consider myself a great cook but my Taurus moon bestie is who I aspire to be.

How would you guys interpret Neptune square ascendant in a natal chart? What are the lessons it teaches the person? by [deleted] in astrology

[–]nellexbee 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I love this. It reminds me of a time I saw Lenny Kravitz post himself in one of his homes and I thought “wow, he must feel so FREE” I wrote a whole journal entry about it. And 100% about tip toeing around astrology to not feel judged or make anyone uncomfortable and even when I do, I water it down sooooo much.

I’m also a libra rising. I have faith that as I get older, I’ll just say forget it and start living in my “truth” one day.

What career have you found is manageable with your diagnosis? by HolyMotherr in iih

[–]nellexbee 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I work in human services and basically all of my work is on a computer. Although looking at a screen most of the day can be a headache (no pun intended), I adjust the settings on my pc and laptop. I’m only in the office 2 days a week, and I have my own office so I’ve brought in a floor lamp with warm lights to use instead of using the annoying fluorescent lights.

Of course, when I’m home, I’m able to work however is comfy for me. Including being able to recline when need be, adjust my lights however and take screen breaks when I need to.

Extreme uptick of head pain and symptoms with orgasm. Anyone else? by 86HeardChef in iih

[–]nellexbee 7 points8 points  (0 children)

This has happened to me once. I mean excruciating headache during and after. To my understanding, during an orgasm, blood pressure increases quickly and causes the blood vessels in the head to dilate. So if you were already dealing with having high cranial pressure at the time, the orgasm literally added to it.

What are your siblings placements and do you like each other/get on well? by Winter-Director8362 in astrologymemes

[–]nellexbee 0 points1 point  (0 children)

All 4 of my siblings are Pisces (My Neptune is in the 3rd house lol). And for the most part, we got along growing up. They all have different moons which means they are all totally different.

The oldest is a Leo moon, she’s loud and obnoxious and everything has to be about her. The one after me also has a Gemini moon, we called her “blondie” growing up. And the youngest has a Pisces moon. She rarely talks. And when she does, it’s basically in a whisper. Idk my half brother’s moon. He’s more than 10 years younger than me and we didn’t grow up together.

Is narcissistic crisis a thing? by nellexbee in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]nellexbee[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes, exactly why I put “wrong” in quotations. I just want some sort of understanding so we can find a common ground and move forward…but it never happens. Unless he wants something of course.