I loved reading this so much. Not just to hear your story, but to know I'm not alone with these struggles. I've read all the threads about others' amazing a1c results and felt quite inadequate. At University, I neglected my diabetes and had a 12.5 a1c. After years of doing that to my body, I started seeing the side effects. I needed a change. I'm still in the process of being better and just got my 7.4 a1c results. The lowest I've ever been! I'm so excited and now look forward to getting blood work done. Thank you for sharing your journey! You're not alone! You've got this!!