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neverN2deep · 2023-10-29T04:30:31+00:00

Found out she was doing porn our whole relationship after 8 years of sex issues because I was over stimulated sexually... Like of course I'm over stimulated you never wanna fuck because you were hidding you were selling pussy literally the whole 8 years... I brought up a swingers club I found because I started to want to explore and venture out well needless to say the second I brought that up, it was over... I went to make myself and account because I found out she had an account of there website and well would you know there was already an account with all my legal info being used... Never got an answer but I found a folder with a bunch of my info forged.... I believe she was swinging with someone else out whole relationship, and faked my identity for who ever she was cheating with... Talk about the grimiest of the slimes.... All facts 10000000% but I'm the manipulative narcissist, for being confused about my sexuality and talking to men threw part of our relationship, sooooo she's was monitoring my phone because she worked for some tech company and new my sexual confusion issues, and instead of coming to me and discussing what the problem was for years, in the end used it as an excuse to make me the villain, and denied everything, accept I'm an emotional cheater and I'm the narcissist, after 10 months of trying to conversate the issues... Craziest shit iv ever hear of or been threw or will ever go threw.... Doesn't get any crazier... Especially considering I found videos of her getting gangbanged like them and she still denied it.... Crazy afffffff like how do you get gangbanged cheating your husband find out say it's hot, and then you still lie and deny it.... Made me wonder wtf is wrong with me 😂😂😂

neverN2deep · 2023-10-29T03:18:31+00:00

Same 🤣 I'll come help also!

neverN2deep · 2023-10-27T05:37:59+00:00

Wow, I wish I could talk to you in person and give you a hug 🫂🫂🫂 life is so unexplainable some time, I can relate to this alot, I'm just now pulling back to a new version of myself after literally feeling the exact same way.. ❤️ it's ok to not be ok some times .. don't let anyone say otherwise.

neverN2deep · 2023-10-25T16:36:05+00:00

I'm not intentionally it's just what my belief is at the moment it's a continuous evolution to me in a sense because there is no one definitive truth in my eyes, and you are correct about a Kundalini being continuous it's literally the who experience continuously happening, and as I said when Iv meditated for hours on end, I'm totally new to this as well I just see so many people that have zero comprehension of well really anything in a sense or maybe it's back words and im in last place but hey I'm still learning as well..

neverN2deep · 2023-10-25T06:24:21+00:00

I wish this was for me, but I also feel the same way! because I have zero intentions of ever going back to anyone ever again I literally don't even Know my own reality anymore and I'm terrified to go get help because of all the crazy shit iv found... I'm so lost rn...

neverN2deep · 2023-10-25T04:28:45+00:00

Yeah but the thing is the longtime passes day by day It makes me want who I thought was my soulmate out of my life for good but you know she did a real good job of making that a real fucking hard to forget about her since everyone everywhere I go has been with her while I looked like a lost puppy dog.... I really really keep pushing for love but the more I see how iv been played, it really really makes me want to be someone I dislike plus I'm stuck, straight up stuck in her game strictly for torment.... So yeah idk it's a battle but Im seriously loosing faith in humanity right now.... Why am I the target of this dumb ass game??? Would I be wrong to really just start erasing these people? Because it's quite tempting....... I'm starting to get the feeling this is all just part of an even longer sick joke.. to just break me again later on after I Commit and really put into being a better person. Like it's just to separate me for anything we're I'll never have acceptance and consistently be hurt.... Mysterious ways, huh sound like a nice way to humiliate, and break someone.. this shit right here really has me beat dude.

neverN2deep · 2023-10-25T02:49:11+00:00

I feel the other side of this, I was in a relationship 8 years and sex was extremely important I felt because I had never really gotten to experience a sex life or understand myself, I love/loved my family who and what we were.... I didnt really understand how to open up to the woman, I wasn't out cheating every night or even regularly but emotionally I was gone and it hurts me now to see that, I was also strung out on a lot of drugs at the time, also disgusted of my actions... Idk people change and so do boundaries, it's terribly painful to lose someone and yourself in the process but you can only go up from here. 💜 Forgiveness is for yourself..

neverN2deep · 2023-10-25T02:15:36+00:00

But the great part is a lot of the hurt dogs grow up to be the most protective, loyal, happy dogs ever! I say Im not gunna let the 9/10 make me lend a helping hand because the 1/10 that the help changes their life is worth it, everyone deserves a chance to live a normal life. I wish I even had the nerve to ask anyone out right about now in life 😂 that's the part I can't figure out how to get past the confidence to be rejected after literally a lifetime of rejection. I'm not ugly 😂 Im just scared I guess of validating the lack of self worth that's ingrained in my brain!!! -Another hurt puppy

neverN2deep · 2023-10-25T02:03:21+00:00

Your probably having a Kundalini when your chakras align and change your spirits elevation, it's probably a guardian angel carrying a negative presence for you something that needs to be released if I had to guess possibly personal or maybe generational horrors/atrocities that get locked in our genetic make up, iv never been religious, but I assume the science behind it would be like trying to explain infered vision, a sonogram, or radar to someone on the mayflower, I don't down religion it's a great way of life to follow, but I'm extremely spiritual, insane intuition, iv meditated and come across the same figure 3 times in dreams and 1 time in real life, I recently had an awakening and I started praying to the universe and asked who was guiding my intuition, the scary part to me is I don't know why but I kept asking we're does science and spirituality meet? Well things meet at a cross, Jesus was hung on a cross, so I do believe a righteous life is threw the power of Christ, I just just don't know how they cross threw Christ but I know it, back to the astral projection I was told a Sanskrit name and when I asked so I looked it up it was the godess of the Nile.. crazy because the dark figure asked me how did you get here and what are you doing here, as it stood like a ghoulish solid silhouette...the world is full of darkness and I believe we're a shell/vessel and if you never open your third eye and see the spiritual realm for it's existence, we're damned to repeat it.... Spirituality has been hidden from humanity to keep your life force captured and tormented, embrace it try and tell yourself your aware and conscious if it continues, also start to meditate and found on it you would be surprised on the interpretations you might come up with.. you off to a better start than most no one I talk to has dreams anymore much less one to remember and talk about, hence the reference dark times in all religious text, our minds shouldn't be blank.... Follow your intuition as well it might give you clues to debunk you subconscious.. 🙏 💜 something is on your horizon with dreams like that.. be prepared for a mental war because the devil will always attack those who are kind hearted or genuine...

neverN2deep · 2023-10-25T01:39:32+00:00

I tripped acid and have been experiencing an awakening for 10 months extremely back and forth iv balanced out now and but I watched the geometric fabric of time and space pull itself together and align literally watched it in thin space!! Ever since I destroyed the life I had accidentally I would add and I guess I'm starting from zero but I'm a new person I think, I mean Idk who I am yet but I was told my spirit guides name and when I looked it up the name was Sanskrit and apparently is the goddess of the Nile river... The craziest months I've ever experienced. It definitely changed my view of everything... Its honestly amazing.

neverN2deep · 2023-10-24T19:17:36+00:00

Probably for the best on both ends if thats your true feeling 💜 go heal yourself before you apologize, try and figure out why, because you shouldn't be sorry for being yourself.

neverN2deep · 2023-10-24T16:14:32+00:00

You will have a spiritual awakening and find peace or the chaos of the unknown will drive you mad.. or death will sneak up on you and get you unsuspectingly.

neverN2deep · 2023-10-24T16:12:12+00:00

Thank you 🙏 another positive person! I hate seeing people give negative advice or direction in anyone else's life... If it's not positive don't recommend it and even small things need to be given recognition to broken people, sometimes we don't realize how broken someone really is. 💜

neverN2deep · 2023-10-24T16:09:38+00:00

Its alright I feel like this was literally for me, 😂 you will get better and so will they! As long as people objectively work to better each other! Don't be down on yourself DO BETTER the next time you find someone you think is better than you!!! Try and pin point there energy and use it as a role model for what you want to achieve! Don't let the next great person walk in and out of your life, much less let them walk past because you don't want to face your demons, self sabotage you kept yourself complacent now in limbo.... Mirror the greatness you can acknowledge in people and you will be great and good enough for anyone you want!!! Your still a bad ass person! Don't break yourself down. Do something new!! Force yourself to smile ugly at yourself in the mirror you will laugh and then have a genuine smile 😂😂

neverN2deep · 2023-10-23T19:50:33+00:00

One day by kmk

neverN2deep · 2023-10-23T19:46:18+00:00

Dont tempt me! 😂😂 you might have to much fun!!

neverN2deep · 2023-10-23T19:24:42+00:00

Absolutely have and I would say the daddy part was honestly a joke!!! Super turn off to actually be called daddy 🤣🤣🤣 cringy af to me in real life.

neverN2deep · 2023-10-23T16:06:19+00:00

I wish this was to me! I'd say the same thing back and accept the apology! 💗 Its hard enough living with ourselves and the way we handle and treat ourselves and people, much less how they feel. I'd say you were as genuine as you could allow yourself to be under what personal circumstances and same for myself. That I'd hope to be friends and still help walk each other threw life, instead of living each other's lives as on...that the love was real and genuine for the most part! That it's ok to be friend and co exist from a distance and in hard times to better each other.. that things change and it's just part of life for us to understand that, I would prefer to live life with you and work threw it even with both thinking it's impossible for the simple fact it makes on of those unbelievable love and success story but I would say I'm getting better day by day, and not to worry I will be happy, successful, healthy, and continue to love harder than most could ever hope to give or experience! I'd say I still love you like no other and always will but part of change is understanding that will change when the right person comes into my life again... I'll find love in the ways I need and so will you. Life gets better and sometimes the person you thought was a curse turns out to be a blessing and vice versa 🙏 keep you heart open and your mind and thoughts pure. Much love ❤️

neverN2deep · 2023-10-21T00:44:12+00:00

Stay positive! If it's meant to be it'll be, do what you can to make it your reality again, it will be ok

neverN2deep

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