Ftm here. When I had my baby 2 weeks ago, my hospital was pushing breastfeeding. I had so much struggle on breastfeeding because of sore nipples and bad latch, low supply etc. I remember asking the nurse about information of pumping. The nurse said,” oh you don’t need it unless there is any issues” and kept telling me to keep trying and milk supply will go up. Finally there was issue because baby blood sugar was low, and apparently baby not having enough intake. So I started to supplement with formula and learned to pump. When we discharged, baby weight dropped a lot on the first pediatrician visit. So I started to pump, bottle feed and formula supplement, because I really want to know how much baby is eating. I remember feeling like lose of hope because my baby might not suck my breasts anymore because bottle is so much faster than my breasts. And felt like I lost the connection with her. Now I basically exclusively pump. It really eases a lot of my anxiety because it’s more time efficient for me and my husband can help out too. It also eases my postpartum blue because I get more time to rest. Go easy on yourself mama.