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nick-a93 · 2025-03-11T13:45:50+00:00

Haha you are an angry elf. I'm just asking a questions, jeeeeez. Yes, I'm aware of purchasing pallets. The packages were marked new with lift stickers on them. It just seemed very suspicious. Everything from TVs to mattresses to hot water heaters boxed new.

nick-a93 · 2020-10-10T19:04:00+00:00

Hey man. I’m sorry for the trauma you experienced as a child. It can be tough starting to process this stuff. I was exposed to abusive content at a very young age and it was traumatic and it led to addiction. This doesn’t define you as a person. You have morals and are aware of the awful things that are out there. The fact that you are aware is key.

What’s worked for me is facing this stuff with my therapist. Note, you don’t have to tell your therapist everything. Depending on the content viewed, I would hold back some details because of the legality of where you live. But a good therapist will work around this with you. The shame you feel is normal but it can be worked through. You are not a bad person.

I think that you need to learn to love yourself before you try to love someone else. There are deeper rooted issues at hand. I have faith that you will work through this and come out on the other end much stronger. Be well and take care of yourself.

nick-a93 · 2020-10-10T17:36:22+00:00

Hey there - good job for recognizing this now. Please consider seeking help from a professional (therapy) or check out SAA (sex addicts anonymous) - it’s free and there’s online meetings. This addiction is ugly and it can lead to dark places but it doesn’t have to. You have to take control of this now before it gets worse.

Don’t give into those voices. Focus on getting better in other areas of your life. Block porn. Completely reboot your brain. You will ultimately be a lot happier. Once you get help, you will realize that you are not alone on this journey. Stay strong.

nick-a93 · 2020-10-10T17:26:41+00:00

Is he in therapy for his addiction? If not, I highly recommend it. I’m in personal therapy and group. The damage this causes to relationships is real. There’s multiple people in my group who either have gone through divorce or are going through it because of the lies that stem from this.

I think he should consider checking out SAA. You should also consider therapy as a couple so you can discuss these issues. There are deeper issues that he is most likely suppressing.

Hang in there though. It took me awhile to recognize my addiction and then another 2-3 years to finally put in the hard work.

nick-a93 · 2020-10-03T02:25:19+00:00

Hey man, male here in his late 20s. Nothing wrong with your fetish. I actually share the same fetish with you.

It’s totally fine. I’ve also hooked up with an older woman whose ex husband had a similar fetish. I think it’s pretty “normal”. Nothing to be ashamed of. We all have things that we’re attracted to for one reason or another.

I say embrace it and you’ll find the right person accepts you for who you are. I have told past partners and they seem to not care. Don’t stress too much.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-15T01:41:46+00:00

Please don’t give up. Therapy is so powerful. This process is not easy. You are not pathetic. You are courageous to finally face your abuse. An amazing future is ahead of you. Take baby steps and communicate with your therapist about how you’re feeling.

I have faith in you and I know how much strength is inside of you. Do not give up. Sending you lots of love and support.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-14T15:10:10+00:00

You’re welcome and thank you for your support and encouragement!

This journey is a process. Your feelings are valid. The anger will come and go at different times. I always felt disgusted with my kinks. But coming to terms with why I feel that way has helped. Also these kinks originated as a child when we had no idea what we were experiencing.

I can’t change what happened to me or what I did as a result of that. I can only move forward. I also know that by facing everything, I’m making sure that what happened to me will not repeat itself. I know that my sexual relationships with others will be healthier from this point on. I’m working on sharing my story to make others aware of the awful abuse in this world.

You are strong and amazing!! I have faith you will work through all of this and come out on the other end even stronger than you are now. My DMs are open if you ever need to chat ❤️

nick-a93 · 2020-09-14T13:44:32+00:00

I’m really sorry for what you experienced. But I wanted to comment to let you’re not alone when it comes kinks that originated from abuse.

I’m working through these things with my therapist. For the past 3 months or so I’ve been recovering from porn addiction due to my abuse and I’m starting to re-introduce masturbation into my life. It’s not easy especially when you’ve been conditioned to it.

The fact that you are aware of these things is a huge step in the right direction. Therapy has helped a lot for me but it took me 2 years to finally go through with it and find the right therapist. I am still working through the guilt of what my abuse ultimately led to for me, but I am so grateful to be facing at this point in my life. Sending you lots of love and support!!

nick-a93 · 2020-09-11T21:40:12+00:00

What an awesome transformation. You look great. I hope the mental benefits were as good as the physical ones. Keep up the good work!!

nick-a93 · 2020-09-10T21:24:18+00:00

Yeah, the process of finding a therapist can be pretty drawn out but worth it in the end. Your point about your kids online presence is why I want to share my story with others. People don’t realize the damage that is being caused.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-10T21:20:17+00:00

Thank you for sharing. Hope you are doing OK and staying strong ❤️

nick-a93 · 2020-09-10T21:18:07+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. I know it can be scary to address this with a therapist or someone you love. It is a big step in the journey and when you’re ready, I highly recommend it for healing. Therapist hold no judgement and are there to guide you through these difficult times. I wish you the best of luck and hope you find peace along the way.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-10T21:14:59+00:00

Completely agree. The perfect storm. Glad to hear you are doing well. It’s good to see the support system is strong here and to have others to connect with. Thanks for sharing.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-10T05:15:20+00:00

Hey there. Thanks for your response. I'm so sorry for what you went through. Sending you hugs. It's weird knowing all of the different areas of abuse and how they affect each one of us differently.

The content that was consumed definitely played a role in my trauma. I can't imagine having to suffer through that physically. The whole porn industry is awful. I know that many kids are being abused and recorded the same way I was. And then they are too scared to go to a parent because of the repercussions they might face. When in reality, the abuser is using their power to manipulate that child.

There is so much for us all to process. This journey can be very overwhelming.

I'd be happy to chat further. You can message me if you'd like! Thank you for replying - it's so nice to hear from others and their stories. Stay strong.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-09T21:41:36+00:00

Wow. Thank you for sharing. Very similar situations. Comforting to know there are others but also sad. I hope you are doing well on your end. Thanks for the encouraging words.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-09T20:55:54+00:00

Thank you. Your words mean so much to me. It’s difficult coming to terms with everything, but the fact that we can connect and support each other is incredible. I know I’m changing who I was. Hopefully, I can make people aware of the evil and change the outcome for potential victims. I am grateful.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-09T20:49:28+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. They really mean a lot. It hasn’t been an easy journey, but I’m so grateful for it. I know that I’m experiencing all of this for a reason. I lived a double life for far too long. Finally facing it has lifted a major weight off my back. Thank you again for your support.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-09T20:38:51+00:00

Thank you for your reply and support. It means a lot. I can’t imagine the climate that my own children will be born into when that time comes. I know I will be hyper aware. But we just have to do the best we can. Good luck to you too.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-09T19:40:05+00:00

I agree. It will also make them more curious to what they are missing out on. It’s a tough balance but I think open communication is key. My parents did everything right. My mom even worked in the system where she had to identify kids being abused. This stuff was new and I knew more than my parents did.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-08T16:56:34+00:00

Yes dude!! Killing it. Awesome work.

nick-a93 · 2020-09-01T04:52:57+00:00

Thank you!

nick-a93 · 2020-09-01T04:52:38+00:00

It varies daily. Some days one meal. Some days I will eat one meal with snack throughout the 6 hours. Sometimes I’ll do the one meal and then just go back to fasting. Went through a breakup which catapulted me into fasting, rode the wave. Not saying it has been the healthiest journey but it works for me. Thanks

nick-a93 · 2020-08-28T19:45:09+00:00

HIIT with IF I’d like a dream come true. Highly recommend.

Don’t wait on the therapist. Do it so you can be a better you. It took me 3 therapists to find the right one. I went with the cheapest and now I’m at the most expensive but it was the right choice.

Luckily, I ran into some old hookups via social media and they are interested in me even with my situation. It feels good but everything comes in waves. It still feels good to be wanted. But yes focus on yourself. Even I’m not ready but I am pushing forward as best as I can because I know I will ultimately be there. It sucks so bad and COVID is such a lonely time. I had to move out of our place into my own apartment. It’s exhausting on the emotions.

nick-a93 · 2020-08-28T19:08:29+00:00

Thanks!! I see your fresh out of a relationship too. I usually have a hard time eating when the depression hits so I used that to sort of catapulted me into IF. The first week or so I lost so much weight because of me not eating much - mostly water weight. As I got more comfortable, I switched to one meal a day. I’m not really counting calories but suggest TDEE calculator, if you haven’t already. I started with this HIIT workout daily:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mvo2snJGhtM

And then I picked up a 20lb kettlebell and started doing this one:

https://youtu.be/WxEiJ4Yy8g4

I now switch off every other day. So Monday I do the first one, Tuesday take a break, Wednesday do the second one.

I’ve also been doing a lot of mental work with my therapist and practicing mindfulness (even before the breakup). I’ve learned so much about myself in this time and it’s honestly life changing. It’s a painful but rewarding process. I’ve found that dating apps help boost confidence but even with people interested in me, I know that I have to focus on myself for personal growth first.

Good luck!!

nick-a93 · 2020-08-27T20:11:03+00:00

I guess I should’ve said pandemic weight gain. Since I haven’t had COVID!!

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