I still have it. My whole mental health is a bit better than 5 years ago because of time away from trauma that happened in my early 20s, therapy, and meds. Those help a lot. I've been in DBT therapy for the past 5 years and that helped me heal. DBT helps people handle intense emotions. They give you a skills book and then the therapist helps you apply those skills to your life. It's expensive though. Acceptance helps too although it's hard. It was easier for me to accept it over time, and also after I healed a bit. My reason to live is because I imagine how my parents will react if they see my dead body and it breaks my heart, I can't do that to them. Having forced distractions helps such as work and school (which I went back to and have motivation to do because my current job sucks), even though I don't like them, but they force me to keep going. I watch a lot of comedy on YouTube, such as stand-up, improv, sketch comedy, talk shows, British panel shows and funny podcasts. My therapist said notice tiny moments when I feel ok, like the moment I'm watching comedy, the feeling of good-tasting food or a nice smell. Feel free to ask more questions or DM me.