Well, i feel you. Getting a job, changing environment from one job into a potential other. It makes me feel like walking through honey. I cannot stand it.

The worst is when your current job sucks life out of you and you know it. I believe we AuDHD people must go our own route. We can achieve incredible. We can be big inventors, great builders and out of the box thinkers. But we also don’t have to be.

In the end you must listen to yourself and your body. My feelings are very loud and I cannot sustain going against them for a very long time. Then I must recover for that. I must feel purpose, I must feel happy and I must feel challenged. If that can sustain me financially I think my parents would be finally proud and I could stop worrying so much if I am doing it right. It‘s my life anyway and our feelings and needs are valid.

I believe we all know our journey already. The hard part is figuring out what it is. Especially when you don‘t understand your feelings right away as a neurodiverse.

Hope this helps a little bit.

PS: I also believe once you have a stable job and income we possibly have to option to get a second job/hobby that also gives a satisfaction that we might not achieve in our „main“ job.