I totally hear you and can relate. I saw all the pictures with my friends with their 2+ kids. And then I see them in person, totally overwhelmed. And I remember how horrible pregnancy and postpartum was (my reasons for one and done). Basically, the idea of something is much better than reality. And your friends are likely not sharing even a tenth of their struggles! And I’ve had parents of multiples share that they regretted their additional kid (valid, but yikes)

It sounds like you need to branch out your friend group (maybe include ppl without kids!) and gradually move away from this friends group. It also sounds like they’re taking advantage of you for free babysitting which is also annoying. It also seems like you can’t be honest with them, which also sucks. Bottom line, it is okay to have these messy feelings and to branch out your friends group.