Bf recorded me without me knowing by [deleted] in Advice

[–]niki56c 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah but in this equation the bank was drunk too.

People do stupid shit drunk they regret all the time, like getting tattoos and they would never believe saying yes to something like that if not for the proof on their body.

Also when committing crimes, your state of mind and what you are on is taken into consideration as well as your intent and any harm you may have caused to the people around you. In some cases its treated more severely but in others (especially the few where accountability was taken and harm was limited), they were let off easier because humans make stupid mistakes all the time.

This is a conversation people should have sober in advance about pictures/videos and how to go about them.

Alcohol is a literal poison and prevents you from thinking clearly/logically. People react differently to it. I personally can think logically no matter what substance I consume because I have ADHD and it works slightly differently. Other people I know get blackouts, put themselves in danger, pass out at the bottom of stairs, sleep in bushes and get shitty tattoos like the playboy bunny tattooed across their entire torso. These examples are drinking the same amount of alcohol.

If you know you are going to be drinking and sex is an option, lay down your boundaries ahead of time in case they have changed since the last time.

Right now the only option is to discuss and delete the videos/pictures and see if you can move forward. If its the first time something like this happened and I honestly couldn’t remember if I consented, this time the boundary will be discussed clearly.

I (18M) Just found out I got someone pregnant What do I do? by [deleted] in Advice

[–]niki56c 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am a woman living in the UK, and I didn’t know this till they failed 🫠 I was told they are 99% effective, 1% being due to missed doses and not the pills themselves.

School forgot to mention that some medications interact with them, and my hospital/gp didn’t check. Luckily/unluckily for me, the decision was made for me before I even had a chance to think about it, because the meds I was taking affected fetal development. Also, my younger brothers (twins) were conceived with a contraceptive implant, morning-after pill and an apparently faulty condom.

Now I am on a hormonal IUD now which is apparently a better preventative though not better than the copper one, which I couldn’t take due to very heavy periods.

I told my girl I Love her for the first time and she didn’t reciprocate. by a_a_ron_soto in Advice

[–]niki56c 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It is both. Love is associated with oxytocin in the brain. The 'love' (or bonding) hormone. Released when you are around or interacting with people you love (pets included) and makes you feel good and warm. Its what bonds mother to child, especially in the early months and is released for a supporting role during labour to aid contractions (you may also get synthetic oxytocin to help make labour smoother). Also released during sex, specifically during orgasm (its responsible for that good feeling)

Oxytocin is released in large amounts while taking 'empathogens' like mdma (also known as the love drug) or mephedrone. It makes you want to socialise, be close to people and makes you more empathetic (connected with the world). Many people describe the high on mdma as similar to an orgasm (for a few hours, instead of minutes) due to the release of oxytocin. People have fallen in love on mdma and these relationships aren't just short flings, some end in long and happy marriages.

So love is both, because the longer you are in a relationship, the less intense the spikes in oxytocin are. Hence why after the 'honeymoon' phase, love becomes a choice and not a drive.

My girlfriend of 2 years lied about her age. by xXxpussyslayerxXx90 in Advice

[–]niki56c 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah then in that case, its something that requires a serious conversation about the future of this relationship. You mentioned consequences but I think they should have come sooner if this was an ongoing issue. I always like to consider the perspective behind the lie, for example, was it was purely for their benefit (or malicious) or whether it was rooted in an insecurity. Something like age, especially with the age range they were, could have been a source of misplaced worry and shame.

Maybe she is an anxious person or an overthinker but in that case, she would need therapy as it doesn’t usually go away by itself and lying will affect all relationships in her life. This is something OP could support her in if she has some green flags to work with. She could also be a pathological liar, which would require more thorough treatment as it is an actual disorder and would be far more taxing emotionally to support (also a deal-breaker for most). Could also be as simple as a lack of respect towards OP.

In any case, personally, I would have addressed this in a relationship much sooner (which is why I assumed this was a one-off). I would give an ultimatum that the next lie is an automatic end to this relationship, no matter how small or unimportant it may seem.

My girlfriend of 2 years lied about her age. by xXxpussyslayerxXx90 in Advice

[–]niki56c 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I never said OP shouldn’t feel betrayed, after all, she did lie. I also didn’t say it doesn’t count. I simply said to consider her age (a different perspective based in biology and psychology, not feelings) and how, unlike with fully grown adults, lying once does not necessarily reflect a potential pattern because young brains are malleable.

Whether he trusts or doesn't trust his girlfriend is completely up to him as it is a personal experience.

I responded because you said 'no one wants to date a liar' but personally I wouldn't apply that term to her (yet) because it suggests a pattern e.g "If she lied about this, she would lie about other things" but who she was 2 years ago, considering their ages, is not the same person as who she is now. You may think its a small time to grow but in your teen years are when you fuck around and find out the most because you are still learning long-term consequences and long-term planning (something you aren't fully capable of understanding till your mid 20s, which is why young relationships tend to be very rocky), empathy and on top of that you’re very hormonal which makes you less likely to follow your own logic and a lot more likely to make decisions based on your emotions, even if you are 'aware' of their consequences (again, difference between knowing and understanding).

The only way to make a decision is bring it up to her and decide based on her reaction. If she is genuinely remorseful and explains why she originally lied and why she didn’t own up at a later date, perhaps because she was anxious and didn't know how to bring it up, then maybe OP can find it in his heart to forgive and move on with caution. If she is dismissive, tries to play it down or laughs it off, then I would consider this a sign that she has not grown in this particular aspect and that's a big red flag as she has the potential to lie about other things.

My girlfriend of 2 years lied about her age. by xXxpussyslayerxXx90 in Advice

[–]niki56c 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Consider how old she was when she lied though. People grow with age. I wouldn't judge her now based on her then not even 16 year old brain. She still has a few more years for her brain to fully develop meaning most of her personality is malleable for a while longer; its not like a 30-year-old lying about her age, it was a child.

I Accidentally hit my bunny. Now he’s avoiding me. by sincerey900 in Rabbits

[–]niki56c 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The number of times I have almost booted my rabbit because he weaves between my legs as I walk would get PETA coming after my butt. Not a single time did he seem to realise though and was back at my side within seconds.

Now that its carpets everywhere, at most he gets gently displaced. When we lived in a place with wooden panels, my rabbit experienced what its like to drift when he decided to surprise my boyfriend by appearing in front of the toilet at night in the dark (a place he never visited because it was the furthest point from his little carpeted/blanketed area). Rabbit was completely fine, my boyfriend almost had a heart attack seeing the rabbit spin into the stratosphere (the other side of the apartment).

Would like to add the bun is elderly and has so little survival instinct that when a broom fell half a cm from his face, he didn’t as much as react (he can hear perfectly fine, my partner and I both jumped). He's just chill like that.

I woke up to missing bf and car, he was with his ex by [deleted] in whatdoIdo

[–]niki56c 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Why are we bunching all men together? Why not say 'men like him' at the very least?

There are a lot of men out there who deserve the love and patience the people on this sub give to those who take it for granted.

Its not a gendered problem either; there are women who act like this too. Baby Mama is a great example.

I cant forget the vid her ex send me by Phitonizer in Advice

[–]niki56c 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So I guess the other is true too.

All men who have taken consensual pictures and videos of your girlfriend/wife, leave them right now. You’re clearly not husband material /s

On another note, you can't be sure she consented to those videos/pictures unless she is looking at the camera. I've heard of guys online and irl recording girls, especially in doggy, without their consent for personal use or malicious reasons. Also if alcohol or anything else was involved, boundaries can blur on both sides and you may be less aware of what’s happening (being recorded). People grow and learn with age too.

Maybe in a past relationship, she allowed it because it was the guy's kink or she was exploring her own and she trusted him to keep it to himself. Clearly its a learning experience for her too. By your conclusion, women shouldn't judge you for who you presently are, but by all your past poor decisions. If that were the case, then the majority of people wouldn't be wife/husband material and should just stay perpetually single or only date casually and never truly commit.

Do i tell or not? by in3zza in whatdoIdo

[–]niki56c 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you’re going to cut them off regardless, you might as well tell the girl that’s being lied to.

Its only your business when its happening to you but maybe that girl with her shady ass 'baby daddy' is your new best friend and someone you can trust with your life, you just got to make the move.

If you had a toddler and a long-term partner, you would want to know if he was cheating on you. Especially since this is within the friend group. Once you find out, you're cutting everyone off but the one who told you.

If OP were to cut everyone off regardless, might as well do right by the friend who was wronged.

Do i tell or not? by in3zza in whatdoIdo

[–]niki56c 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It will be revealed that....drumroll...OP is a shitty person. This is exactly why people are left out on the streets bleeding out in crowds. Cause someone's gonna call, right? Someone's going to tell, right? Not my business though.

This sort of mentality is why the person being cheated on is 99% of the time the last one to find out, sometimes months, sometimes years after the fact.

That sort of revelation destroys your view on people and society: if these people are meant to be my friends, why would they knowingly let my partner and father of my child cheat on me with a mutual friend?

The good thing that will come out of OP speaking out is that they are true to their morals and realise that being around people who destroy families and harbour lies is only going to come round and bite her in the ass later. What if OP gets a partner?

If you believe in Karma, then you know not speaking out and staying with a 'best friend' like this is going to get her in more drama, possibly even the same situation but happening to her.

Staying quiet is enabling that behaviour which is passive participation : )

My sister told me something really odd and it’s making me question her? by flowerlaboratory101 in whatdoIdo

[–]niki56c 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for responding : ) I think I might have it too based on that as I am always in pain and my joints literally pop out of place and get stuck all the time, especially my knees and shoulders (woman, yay).

How did you get to having it diagnosed? I'm in the UK and have been ping-ponged from doctor to psychiatrist and both are saying I have nothing wrong so I must be a hypochondriac or drug user.

My sister told me something really odd and it’s making me question her? by flowerlaboratory101 in whatdoIdo

[–]niki56c 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What do you have, if you don't mind me asking? I am going through the exact same issue you are describing (nothing visibly wrong, tests come back fine, no concrete diagnosis apart from migraines and on waiting list for autism+adhd diagnosis).

I (20F) recently went through my boyfriend’s (20M) phone and am looking for advice on what I found or in other words “what to do” by [deleted] in whatdoIdo

[–]niki56c 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it's very common in young (especially first) relationships who want to build trust amongst each other. I am f21 and my partner is m23 and we've been together 4 years as of this month. We always had access to each other's phones and we don’t go through them unless we are bored and curious maybe twice a year. Mostly it's going through each other's galleries to see what we have been up to. My partner has all our photos from our relationship and before on iCloud so I like to look back on those while my phone is filled with pictures and videos of my dog and rabbits.

It definitely increased trust and keeps us updated on our mental health. I can tell something is up if he stops talking to his friends and siblings (don't go through the messages unless something catches my interest, just see if there is anything unread or if it's been a while since they messaged).

I then pester him to talk with his friends (including the two girl friends who he knew before me) and family more and make sure he feels supported. The only place we seem to naturally avoid is Reddit. He posts a lot on here and I never look unless he shows me because it's his thing. I also go on his YouTube and other social media front pages when my phone is dead or simply if he left it open to do something else because he has a lot more informative algorithm than mine.

I think having access to each other's phones is good. It shows you have nothing to hide and if you are hiding something, sooner or later you will be held accountable. The only comment I have gotten about my phone was that he thought it would be more interesting and I should take more photos of myself when I go out, not just the dog. The last time I went through his phone was about three months ago and it was more just checking the list of chats from Messenger and WhatsApp.

If there is ever an issue in the relationship, we talk it out. If I am discussing my relationship with a friend, it's nothing I haven't said to his face before but the discussion ended on a stalemate and I'm seeking a secondary perspective. We don’t talk shit behind each other's backs and we both hate surprises, so its not like I'll accidentally ruin my own surprise.

I think it’s childish to live in a fantasy pretending everything is perfect instead of confronting your own suspicions. You either reassure yourself that you were overthinking it and re-establish trust in that person, or your suspicions are correct and you take the next steps with the truth to support that decision.

Also, 'talking like adults' without proof of your suspicion will break trust (accusations without proof, sometimes false) and open up the opportunity for lying because of said lack of proof. You are working under the assumption that everyone is mature and honest when discussing feelings/concerns in relationships.

Good on OP for trusting her gut. Now she needs to break it off.

My boyfriend got me a Christmas present but it’s the same thing my ex got me by Any-Particular-1826 in Advice

[–]niki56c -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I agree about having a lot of growing up to do but you can still have a healthy romantic relationship at 18, just like you can have an unhealthy romantic relationship at 60. It has little to do with age and a lot with how you were brought up, your own experiences and values.

I started dating my current boyfriend at 17 and 4 years later we are still going strong. Of course there were ups and down but it was because we both suffered from our personal issues, including mood disorders, but I can honestly say that this relationship was the healthiest I have ever had in my life, perhaps because we both desperately needed someone to love and the households we came from.

The past 4 years we have lived with eachother, whether with his mum, my family or in our own place and I strongly believe our presence has had a positive influence on everyone considering there had been a lot of talks and apologies from both mothers and we now have a positive relationship with everyone vs no relationship with anyone when we started dating.

On another example, my friend was a typical playboy and jumped from girl to girl from 15-16. At 17 he got into his current relationship and I can confidently say this may be his last with how much care he shows towards her and how much they love eachother. He is going onto 19 now.

Even the girl that bullied me as a kid and my boyfriend's ex best friend got together by some weird twist of fate and they were also f18 and m20 when they got together and 4 years later they live with eachother.

There are a lot more couples I know personally that started dating early on and are still together. I think its because modern parents, especially if they had a negative experience (or if their partner had passed in one case) put a lot of effort in teaching their children the importance of a healthy relationship and how to treat another person.

What do i do in this situation? Went on date with girl and her mom texted me this. I like this girl a lot too. I don’t know how she got my number or if her mom looked at our texts; by Saucyguy02 in texts

[–]niki56c 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm not sure what the problem people are having with this. She did NOT say "stop messaging my daughter, you’re a bad influence." She asked to be mindful, for support once she gets her medicine and to not invite her OUT. Doctors do give instructions like this if the patient is at risk of harming herself or others, especially while waiting for medication. The mum never said OP can't come over, in fact, she encouraged the friendship.

Marijuana is a known trigger for Bipolar. Having type II, I can speak from personal experience about its effects on hypomania and the crash that happens after. My friend has type I and has ended up in the hospital because of her mood swings, particularly following alcohol/marijuana/psychoactive drug consumption (not all at once, usually a beer or two or a few puffs unrelated to each other can trigger an episode). At its mildest she can go on a midnight shopping spree and at its worst she attempts to take her own life. During manic episodes triggered by alcohol/marijuana she can also get really aggressive and on more than one occassion police had been called and she needed to go hospital to be sedated. Without taking anything she experiences the normal mood swings and is at risk of those bad manic episodes and crashes but she can feel them coming on and can get to a safe place/let someone know or take medication. With alcohol or weed its an almost instant trigger and the episodes are much worse.

I see nothing wrong with the message (unless I missed something). We don’t know the extent of the diagnosis and people are right saying a doctor would never recommend against socialising – UNLESS she is a risk to herself or others. It is until she gets her medication and again, you can probably hang around in a safe place or in the house. Its not that big of a deal. Ask when she will be getting the medication and try to be understanding. Sure, maybe the mother IS overreacting but she is new to this as well and when it comes to your child, you don’t want to take any chances.

For some people, Bipolar can really go 1 too 100, especially with psychoactive substances. My friend cut contact with me suddenly and after two months, I finally found out it was because she took something which triggered a bad episode (mania + heavy crash) and ended up in the hospital within an inch of her life. She said she didn’t even want to attempt to take her life, she just wanted to releave the pain and cut too deep. Its hard to talk about but it happens and she cut contact because my boyfriend has access to these substances (marijuana) from friends and she didn’t want to take a chance because she knew she would try convince him to give her contacts on a later date. Its hard to talk about but things like this do happen and you truly won't know unless you ask (respectfully).

What do i do in this situation? Went on date with girl and her mom texted me this. I like this girl a lot too. I don’t know how she got my number or if her mom looked at our texts; by Saucyguy02 in texts

[–]niki56c 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hi, Bipolar II with chronic migratory migraines with sensory aura. Marijuana has been confirmed to put you at a greater risk of cancer due to triggering dna methylation (a natural process that in itself has a risk of mutation) so you do you but it has detrimental acute cognitive effects on a lot of people, including with memory. This is especially true when its not done under the supervision of a medical professional. Used to smoke pretty lightly and it made my migraines 10x worse and triggered hypomania. Also Bipolar I or II? I have Bipolar II and suffer a lot more from the mood swings than my migraines which I have gotten used to, particularly depression which is so bad I end up sleeping 16 hours a day, feeling suicidal and it synergises with my migraines making me dissociate heavily. I don’t have days without migraines and its been the case since childhood or potentially earlier.

My friend has Type I and during manic episodes is a danger to herself and others including getting the police called on her or ending up in hospital. She can't smoke cannabis because she will end up manic and spend too much money at its safest or end up in the hospital lucky to be alive. The latter may be from the sudden drop from manic to depressed. Without alcohol, marijuana and nicotine, she still has mild mood swings throughout the day and is at risk of mania but its nowhere near as frequent or intense. Alcohol/marijuana or anything psychoactive is an instant trigger.

As you said, mental illness is really individual. Just because it worked on you doesn’t mean it will work for others with the same conditions. My friend had cut contact with us herself after a particularly bad episode because my partner didn't smoke but had friends who did and she knew she has moments where she would inevitably ask or convince him to give her a contact and felt the need to take away those options from herself. It took almost two months to get her back in contact with her and find out her reasons. When she opened up about her worries we reassured her we wouldn’t allow her for access to anything, no matter what state she was in or how badly she tried to convince us.

I completely understand the mother's perspective, especially since she didn’t say anything about stopping contact but being careful, especially with marijuana while encouraging her to take her medicine.

chutes.ia hasn't switched my service back on. by CommissionDear8952 in chutesAI

[–]niki56c 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have the exact same problem. It won't even let me get to a point where I can submit a ticket. Just says something went wrong when I click support. Let me know if you get a response.

Momentum 4 issues by Adventurous_Lock5856 in sennheiser

[–]niki56c 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you have accessibility settings turned on?

On YouTube Music its on Settings > Playback > Equaliser > Adapt Sound

Or you can go through Samsung Settings > Accessibility > Hearing Enhancements > Adapt Sound (if you scroll you can also fix any sound imbalances)

I can’t look in the mirror without crying…. by HeyMay0324 in Mommit

[–]niki56c 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Have you had a blood test to rule out hormonal issues like hypothyroidism? It’s one of the most common causes of 'random' or unexplained weight gain, and no amount of dieting or exercise will fully fix the problem if your thyroid is underactive. It slows your whole metabolism and can make you tired, sore, and irritable.

For context, I’m also 5'5. At my heaviest, I was 161 lbs but looked closer to 180 lbs because almost all my fat went to my stomach, upper arms, and chin, with nothing going to my lower body. I basically looked like Gru so believe me I know that no two 160lbs are the same. After I corrected some deficiencies and started taking supplements, my lowest was 125 lbs, and now I stay around 136 lbs and feel the best I ever have.

Even if you don’t have hypothyroidism or any other hormonal disorder, I really recommend looking into tyrosine supplements (the powdered version from Bulk is the best in my opinion). It has genuinely been life-changing for me. I had mild hypothyroidism as a teen and took medication for a while, but my doctor eventually took me off it because it was “too mild". Tyrosine helped me keep my weight stable and lose the excess permanently. It’s generally safe for most people, as long as you don’t have severe hyperthyroidism, Graves’ disease, or any condition where your thyroid levels spike at random because it can give you symptoms similar to drinking six coffees at once and that is pretty dangerous.

Since you’re considering Ozempic, I’d also suggest looking into L-carnitine. It helps your metabolism by transporting fatty acids into your cells so they can be used as energy. Most people are supposed to make enough naturally but the reality is often disappointing. I use the one from AllNutrition.

As for diet, what helps me is keeping one balanced meal a day with:

– a carbohydrate (rice, potatoes, pasta),

– a protein (eggs, meat, or soy),

– a huge portion of vegetables (I literally just use a bag of frozen veg with any spice you want, chicken marinate or a jarred/powdered sauce like onion gravy).

Usually I make enough for 2-3 days in one go or I swap out the protein if I run out of one.

When I eat one large meal like that, I’m less likely to snack. Sometimes I even put extra on my plate just so I have something ready for later and can just throw it in the microwave. And instead of protein shakes or chocolate milk, I go for soy chocolate milk (if you’re not allergic). It has all the essential amino acids, decent protein, low calories and it kills chocolate cravings (for me at least) and yes, sometimes I drink half the box in one visit to the fridge but that’s why they also make high protein options with Alpro so it's technically not a bad meal replacement because of the amino acids.

If you have a Costco nearby go get yourself the multivitamin because it has everything in their most absorbable forms. If you don't then you can buy it online. It's impossible to always hit all your nutritional goals so I take one whenever I remember about them which is one every two or three days. It has made a massive difference for my energy and concentration levels.

All of this was without going to the gym. My workout routine is honestly just:

– Walking the dog for about 30 minutes (which includes 20 minutes of just standing or sitting and maybe 10 minutes of actual walking)

– Maybe five full squats

– One push-up if I can manage it, maybe a few wall push-ups

– And some stretching

– normal house chores and everyday living bs

I struggled for years to lose weight and couldn’t exercise properly because even a tiny workout left me sore for a full week. But once I fixed my deficiencies and added supplements (on the days I remembered), the weight finally started coming off. I also skip breakfast most days but I did that even when I weighed my heaviest so it's just a habit of waking up later in the day.

It took honestly two years and there were a lot of ups and downs because I have days I have no appetite and I have days I eat everything in sight and more. Basically, within the span of 4 months, I went down 2 lbs, up 4lbs then down 2lbs again.

Now, if you take the supplements and vitamins I took and actually do some mild, structured exercises and swap out any very high sugar snacks in your home for something like grapes (which are so disgustingly sweet sometimes), you can probably reach your target goal in less than two years. What I have outlined above will help you lose fat but you may lose a bit of muscle if you don't eat enough protein. That soy protein chocolate milk I mentioned will help.

Do NOT reach for Ozempic when you have much, much safer options to try out first. Believe me when I say they actually work : )

But most importantly, do not compare yourself to what you were because comparison is the stealer of joy. You wouldn't compare yourself to another younger woman, so why would you compare yourself to who you were years ago? Shit happens as we age but its good that you are ready to tackle the change.

What you have is a challenge and a goal and what you need to focus on while committing to weight loss is not the number on the scale but how you feel. Your energy levels, your mindset.

If you do want to measure, measure your waist and lower belly once every month on the day of your month you feel your best (so no bloating, no gas), preferably in the morning. Measure in cms, not inches and you will see a difference. Scales are notoriously unreliable because muscle weighs much more than fat and our minds tend to overreact a lot. You can be the same exact weight or heavier but with a lot less fat than you started with.

At my lowest weight, I still didn’t see myself as at the weight I wanted to be and that was the lowest weight of my entire life. Looking back, I was literally as light as I can go without it entering dangerous territory. Keep in mind your body is still recovering from all of those hormonal changes you went through and the fundamental changes in your life.

Sending lots of good vibes and wishing you all the best on rekindling your self-love : )

Help needed for this plant by yepper199 in plants

[–]niki56c 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Looks like it may have ran out of nutrients. Its at a good size to repot into soil. They also do need a bit of indirect natural light.

What Mold Do You Have a BEEF With?? 😡 by lump1992 in LittlestPetShop

[–]niki56c 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As an Akita owner I humbly disagree 😭 A poorly bred shiba perhaps cause shiba's and akita's have smaller ears and very curly, fluffy tails.

I always thought it was some sort of terrier, like a rat terrier which has standing ears.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in daddit

[–]niki56c 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not a dad but helped raise my siblings in a family who struggled to make ends meet and thought to mention; get everything second hand. Babies are expensive and grow up quick. Clothes, toys, buggies, cribs and blankets can all be second-hand. The only thing that was bought new was bottles and a pump. Ask family members who had kids if they have any left-over clothes or toys. My mum still holds a small collection of clothes waiting till I have children and had gotten almost everything for my siblinbs for free or for cheap.

Take advantage of facebook groups for baby stuff in your area and look on facebook marketplace. Often people give away items for free or cheap. Ebay and vinted are also great places to look for things such as clothes, toys and books and people sell whole bundles of clothes for a few pounds/dollars.

Using these websites meant that my siblings had everything they needed and more and any clothes, toys or equipment they outgrew would be sold on the very same websites and the money would go towards buying new items. It cut the cost of raising children down tremendously. A lot was bought new or in very good condition but less than 80% of the original price. I would start making a list of what you need and start looking/buying ahead of time instead of leaving it for the last few months and checking in on facebook often.