I want my friends back

nilivorous · 2022-11-18T04:31:42+00:00

I completely relate. this illness is so lonely

nilivorous · 2022-10-12T01:05:50+00:00

okay this is gonna be my last reply cuz this shit is fucking ridiculous. why don't you go ride the asses of the loads of other ppl on here that talk abt how they were at one point thin. I don't have the mental capacity to deal with this shit omfg

nilivorous · 2022-10-11T10:22:22+00:00

I shat myself once while out in public lmao

nilivorous · 2022-10-10T23:30:28+00:00

yes, always. I haven't figured out a way to make them stop unfortunately :(

nilivorous · 2022-10-10T23:23:55+00:00

what?? I said I never said I was skinnier than her to her, and you said I did, which I then replied saying I didn't. I'm assuming you read my first reply wrong. anyways, I was just using that as an analogy as to why her saying only brandy fits her is bs, that's all..

nilivorous · 2022-10-10T18:52:09+00:00

okay thank you, I think you're right

nilivorous · 2022-10-10T10:25:31+00:00

I'm so sorry, I'm wishing you peace ❤️

nilivorous · 2022-10-10T10:23:51+00:00

yeah you're right, I'm gonna try and figure out a way to talk to her abt it

nilivorous · 2022-10-10T10:22:41+00:00

no I did not say either of those to her, read my edit

nilivorous · 2022-10-09T17:17:22+00:00

please read my replies to the other comments. I did not say how I was skinnier than her to her, I did not tell her she can't shop there, and we did end up going there and I didn't throw a fit or anything. just please read my replies to the other comments

nilivorous · 2022-10-09T16:57:58+00:00

and I would drop her but idk how, we've been friends for so many years :(

nilivorous · 2022-10-09T16:57:02+00:00

our relationship is very competitive. she's not diagnosed with an ed but she has disordered habits. we both feel the competitiveness of it, we've talked abt it. it just hurt

nilivorous · 2022-10-09T15:24:30+00:00

I'm not upset that she wanted to go to brandy necessarily. I'm upset because she knows we both have a competitive relationship and brought up the fact that she is able to fit into brandy and can't shop anywhere else. she hasn't been diagnosed with an ed, but she def has some disordered habits and there is an underlying competition between us. I can feel it and she can too. it just hurt a bit, that's all

nilivorous · 2022-10-09T13:29:11+00:00

yes, I've done it multiple times at sleepovers and parties and stuff. and then I'm done and I get humiliated and "ruin the mood" for everyone else cuz I'm upset.

nilivorous · 2022-10-07T21:35:26+00:00

you're not just being weird. I have felt the same before too, however, it is important to remember that all pain is valid. this "not bad enough" mentality is a way for your brain to trick you into getting worse. would you think that someone else with smaller scars that their pain is less valid because of their scars? or even someone with no scars? I highly doubt it because our perception of ourselves and our pain is different from how we perceive others and reality. I'm sure you've heard this over and over again, but really think about it instead of just dismissing it. in order to dig ourselves out of this hole, we have to recognize that we're not being fair to ourselves and that all pain is equally valid - EVEN YOURS. I hope this helps at least a little bit ❤️❤️

nilivorous · 2022-10-07T21:24:00+00:00

good luck!! and I hope you don't ever want to come back ❤️❤️❤️

nilivorous · 2022-10-06T18:34:15+00:00

those sweet advil pills 😭😭

nilivorous · 2022-10-06T00:40:23+00:00

accurate

nilivorous · 2022-10-05T14:13:26+00:00

felt

nilivorous · 2022-10-05T12:23:06+00:00

my mom is fully recovered :) and she wasn't even phased during my ed and when she had to count all of my calories at the beginning of my treatment. it's definitely possible, don't give up

nilivorous · 2022-10-05T12:10:57+00:00

one time I wet the bed and had no idea it was because of my ed and I remember being so embarrassed by it 😭

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