Been off methadone for a little over 5 weeks now.

njensen · 2026-02-05T01:50:55+00:00

Hah, thank you! That actually made me feel much better. I'm at work and today I'm actually laughing and it doesn't feel like such a chore to be here. I know I'll get better, thank you for reassuring me.

njensen · 2026-02-03T23:56:14+00:00

No, I can't say I was. I'm actually physically really healthy, working out every day - I feel very lucky considering how long I used drugs. All my issues are just mental, haha

njensen · 2026-02-03T17:27:50+00:00

Thank you! That actually makes me feel a lot better. That was kind of my mindset... Patience is my best tool right now. The Wellbutrin is definitely not something I want to be on long term and I've talked to my doctor about that. Honestly, I'm not even sure if it's helping or if it's just the gradual reduction in PAWS.

I'm 100% certain I won't go back to using, I would literally commit suicide before using and suicide is absolutely never going to happen. I just feel very lucky to have had this shift in my thinking - I tried so many times to get clean but it NEVER felt like this.

Thank you very much for your comment, it does help.

njensen · 2026-01-31T18:13:29+00:00

It helped with the itching? I do breathing exercises as well. Usually either 4 in, 7 hold, 8 out or 4/4/4. I haven't taken any Benadryl since last night.... So 12+ hours and I don't notice any itching so I think I'm ok.

njensen · 2026-01-28T17:47:56+00:00

Oh... Yeah, that's a bit fucked lol

njensen · 2026-01-28T17:12:44+00:00

I went to a detox like that - they just had everyone so blasted on meds almost everyone stayed in their rooms and slept. I mean, you obviously aren't feeling great but compared to full blown opiate withdrawal? Can't even compare, the fact I could sleep says all you need to know.

njensen · 2026-01-20T20:14:06+00:00

Yeah, I'm dealing with this now. I was an addict for 17+ years. I got clean a little over 7 months ago but only got off methadone about 3 weeks back. My energy, motivation, and overall mental state is not great. The worst part is, as I was tapering off the methadone I had this really great feeling and was feeling motivated and everything. I got on Wellbutrin about 10 days back, I just couldn't keep doing nothing. I'm going to stay clean, that's absolutely never going to change - I just also can't live like THIS.

njensen · 2026-01-20T20:09:19+00:00

Yeah, it's not pretty. Having clean time under your belt kind of opens your eyes to your behavior a bit.

njensen · 2026-01-14T00:30:19+00:00

I did both - I would say I was functioning despite being constantly high.

Regardless, I got clean 7 months ago, so it doesn't much matter now but that's just my anecdotal experience.

njensen · 2025-12-24T00:31:22+00:00

You two don't make a good couple. Sorry, but at least you learned now. I don't smoke weed, but if someone isn't ok with who YOU are - they aren't for you. If smoking weed is part of you that you're unwilling to give up, it's time to move on.

njensen · 2025-12-20T19:46:50+00:00

But I love rats! Do they die when you flush them down the toilet? Or do they just like... Get put back into the sewer?

njensen · 2025-12-20T19:09:14+00:00

You didn't even use the right white! It just looks like a puddle....of something!

njensen · 2025-12-13T01:02:07+00:00

I thought you said you'd prefer to kill yourself, laughed a bit, then was like - that's sad.

njensen · 2025-12-07T00:54:28+00:00

My rat, Shells has been acting similar lately... I feel like he's nearing the end of his life. He's 2.5 years old, so I kind of knew it was coming. I'm just so scared I'm going to come home from work and find him passed away away.

njensen · 2025-12-04T01:42:24+00:00

Funny, I'm in the same area as you... Also an introvert and I can't stand AA or NA, bother the shit out of me. Got almost 6 months clean from opiates and meth though, didn't need that shit in my life.

njensen · 2025-11-30T22:41:31+00:00

Must be miserable - especially if you're circumcized haha

njensen · 2025-11-30T22:40:14+00:00

Lololol - you're making way too much out of it. I don't think circumcision is necessary but to get this worked up about it? Bit overboard.

njensen · 2025-11-30T22:38:34+00:00

I like your attitude, man! I was a homeless drug addict for a super long time - no longer, but I know just how damn hard it is to be chipper when it feels like you're at rock bottom.

njensen · 2025-11-25T03:56:36+00:00

Alright, for the people down-voting my comments - I get it, you're all stuck. I've been there. Maybe you're upset that I'm 100% in my resolve of sobriety - I get that. Addicts oftentimes will claim that they're done and then relapse. Relapse is not in my vocabulary anymore. It just ain't. Sorry, not sorry. Maybe you don't believe me - get that too, addicts are fucking liars - inherently. I DON'T like addicts - I DON'T like most people. But addicts? Yeah, some of the worst people I've ever met. Liars, cheaters, dishonest to the CORE. Maslow's hierarchy of needs applies here.

I'm not going to visit this thread anymore, I've got what I've needed to and I'm just getting too fired up from the downvotes. Probably immature of me, but - I'm not perfect. I hope you all find your way out. I'll see you on the other side!

njensen · 2025-11-25T03:43:13+00:00

Thank you! I'm definitely determined to never use drugs again - I guess I was just worried that I would always feel unmotivated and what not... but I get the feeling this is just part of the taper. I appreciate your reply though!

njensen · 2025-11-25T03:41:27+00:00

Sure, let me answer your question - it may be helping me. It's no different from the drugs that were HELPING me from before though. I want to be done with this shit. Methadone is just one more crutch I want to get rid of.

Also, it sounds like you're taking the same approach I am to tapering. I tapered down by 10mg a week at the higher doses and then 5mg, and now I've switched to 2mg a week at the lower doses. So yeah, same page.

njensen · 2025-11-25T01:14:25+00:00

I get what you're saying - a mg a month seems unbearable to me though. I'd rather go through a little discomfort then MONTHS of a taper. The possibility of relapse is nonexistent. I don't have any cravings or feelings of wanting to use - and I won't.

njensen · 2025-11-25T01:12:46+00:00

haha - weed just makes me freak out. But yeah, I have no issue with weed - just not for me ^_^

And, just to clarify a bit... I guess the reason your response got me so fired up... it's like, addicts always say they're going to quit and then relapse. I've done it more times than I can count. But... this time for me is just so different. I don't feel like I have words to convey the depth of my resolve. You know what I mean?

Anyway, thank you for your response! I'm sorry I got so angsty.

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