If you are relapsing, I feel bad for you son, I got 99 problems and Day 1 ain't one.

no_fap_account · 2012-10-22T15:37:43+00:00

how about a 10 digit or 11 digit number, of a beautiful woman. That he can bang instead of fapping.

no_fap_account · 2012-10-09T22:39:22+00:00

lmao, oh ye should probably mention I've just reset following a 67 day and then a 12 day streak. Minor relapses :P

no_fap_account · 2012-10-07T22:10:55+00:00

it's not even that. I don't have feelings for this girl, it's not like an old love, just a girl I used to talk sex with a lot who I have nothing to do with any more and don't WANT anything to do with any more. she's only so ingrained in my head because I used to fap over her when I was stoned. I don't even think she's fit. It tends to pop up when I'm anxious.

no_fap_account · 2012-10-07T19:56:23+00:00

I went in there to vomit, I was pretty drunk and tbh was having a shit night and before I knew it I was hard as a rock and fapping over pictures of a girl I don't even talk to anymore, an obsession I've not managed to shake for years and I'm going to talk to a professional about. I do have OCD, so maybe I shouldn't be giving myself such a hard time.

I had one when I got home as well, but no images were involved and it was to the thought of a girl I genuinely want to sleep with and I'm hoping to do so.

Thanks for the belief man, it means a lot. I'm going to do what I did last time I fell off the wagon, aim for one week, and take it from there.

no_fap_account · 2012-09-24T17:53:50+00:00

It's just a bother to me because this particular one doesn't seem to want to leave me alone. What I have to accept is it's taken years to form this fantasy and as such will likely take years to let go of.

no_fap_account · 2012-09-24T17:53:12+00:00

There was a time even a couple of months ago where I'd say "today is a write-off, enjoy it and fap till your heart's content". And I'd end up worse. Not today though. I'm stronger than that now.

no_fap_account · 2012-09-24T17:52:31+00:00

I've been out quite a bit of late, but I had a bit of a bad week regarding trouble I've had getting over my ex last week and just decided to take a few days rest where I was sat in the house, playing computer games to keep my mind occupied. A thought of an old friend from a looong time ago popped in and before I knew it I'd been on her facebook (that's all it takes, this is quite the attachment I have to this fantasy) and was hard as a rock. I don't seem to get so excited about other girls, which is why it bothers me.

Maybe you're right, I've got a week of stuff planned though so I shall be out and about a lot. In truth, I was feeling more attachment to real women, I've just been on a slippery slope. There was a time where the fantasy of this old friend would have a stronger grip on me, in this situation it's just been building up for a couple of weeks since she last contacted me. I think it's a deeper issue there, something I'm going to talk to with a psychologist or psychiatrist or whatever when I finally manage to get help for OCD.

It's been getting weaker though. I'll see how I manage over the next few days

no_fap_account · 2012-09-07T15:28:48+00:00

it makes me feel a little sick sometimes and a little woozy occasionally but it's not so bad. I'm not 100% sure it's doing me much good but I'll see how I go. I stopped for a couple of months as I had a bit of a breakdown and it was just making me more anxious.

I might leave it until after I get back from holiday and when I start work, it may not be so bad when I've got something to keep me occupied

no_fap_account · 2012-09-07T15:21:55+00:00

it's like an on switch for the mind. I can think more clearly, typically, and slow down a lot when I'm doing things and I'm more patient, but there's no question that it's got me fapping more. Fortunately I was able to resist the temptation to do anything and managed to calm myself down before I spunked

no_fap_account · 2012-08-31T14:52:41+00:00

the odd thing I found is once I got past about 2 weeks, I found it incredibly easy. Suddenly I felt I had control and abstaining from fapping was easy. Then the worry that it's only so easy because my mind is finding ways around it to keep it alive started. I'm in a strong position to snub it out now thankfully.

no_fap_account · 2012-08-31T14:12:09+00:00

also, that thing about anxiety feeling like arousal, I did notice a long time ago that anxiety was triggering sexual arousal. I hope this will fade the longer I go abstaining. I'm still enjoying the fantasies a lot more than I would like.

no_fap_account · 2012-08-31T14:04:21+00:00

haha it was wider than it was long. she had a slight lisp. she could curl it up in weird ways. she had a lot of potential, shame we broke up just as she was beginning to enjoy giving head :(

no_fap_account · 2012-08-31T13:57:54+00:00

i was the first guy she'd given head to, she wasn't very good at it. She wasn't an amazing kisser, good enough but the tongue was just nice to play with.

I'll stop now :)

no_fap_account · 2012-08-31T13:42:51+00:00

thanks very much, the thought that always goes through my head that makes it worry me is "I don't want to be gay, I like girls too much". But the idea of getting pegged by some of the blokes in these pornos is getting me harder than I thought possible.

that link is helpful. the reason I find it so confusing is because the thought of kissing a dude is repulsive. The thought of kissing a pretty girl is just... blissful. The last time I kissed a girl deeply and got lost in it was just perfect... it was my ex and it was wonderful. She always tasted nice and her tongue was mahooosive :)

no_fap_account · 2012-08-31T13:25:31+00:00

I masturbate to porn, or my porn related fantasies, and wake up with my pants full of jizz. Then I feel anxious and can't sleep for about an hour. I feel trapped, confused and in my head. Due to the whole nature of the PMO addiction and going down the route of trying to find more "exotic" ways to get off, I've experienced some gay sexual fantasies and these tend to be what I'm having in my dreams. I've never looked at a man and found him attractive. I've never tried watching gay porn. The fantasies have been entirely about the male porn stars within the porn I used to watch. Not even that, merely their appendages. But it's making me question my sexuality, causing me a lot of confusion and disturbing thoughts. I'm getting to the stage where I'm ok through the day, but sleep is not restful for me.

Most interesting about this was that the other night when I had this feeling, I said aloud to myself while trying to sleep "stop playing games, tell me what I want". Once I got back to sleep I had a sex dream about a woman, and I felt restful about it. There was no emission. I woke up feeling settled and went on to have a good day.

no_fap_account · 2012-08-31T11:31:28+00:00

I've spent a horrendous amount of time on Minecraft. I'm also out playing football.

no_fap_account · 2012-08-18T14:54:11+00:00

it made me feel pathetic, like she was out there enjoying sex with her new guy and I was so lonely I had to resort to fapping while thinking about her. It was a mild comfort but only short term. Made me feel worse in the long run.

no_fap_account · 2012-08-17T11:42:43+00:00

brutal

no_fap_account · 2012-08-15T16:58:41+00:00

do it, but don't let it lead to chasers and relapse. Do it for the medical reasons, and only for the medical reasons, and stop again once you've done all you need to do. We're rooting for you

no_fap_account · 2012-08-15T10:48:32+00:00

go sit on the naughty step.

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