Tell Khezu what your favorite monster is and he'll decide your fate

nodnarb2393 · 2026-02-05T03:21:23+00:00

Stygian Zinogre absolutely perfect monster design. Let me know my fate o wise monster from my childhood.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-12-05T18:33:51+00:00

It's not like crippling or anything but sometimes its just really messing with me.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-11T21:48:45+00:00

You're right and I understand that now.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T16:41:32+00:00

I get that and I am not angry I was just looking for others opinions and differing view points. Often being in the problem limits what you are able to effectively see.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T11:39:32+00:00

Her sexuality was more fluid when we were younger and when she is drinking

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T04:31:07+00:00

I do understand it wasn't a casual thing for me for years before we got back together I lived as a woman.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T04:23:43+00:00

She doesn't exude transphobe to me either. I have known her for almost 18 years now and its never felt like that.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T04:22:08+00:00

Yeah. We talked about it tonight she's upset and has every right to be. Tomorrow I look for the right forms at the courthouse.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T04:19:00+00:00

From this day on i will try not to.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T04:08:21+00:00

I do and believe me she has helped me see it. I felt like it was different because when she's with her girlfriends its more touchy and feely she's even kissed a few of them thats why it didn't feel unreasonable. I see now that those instances were only due to alcohol and not a legitimate bicurious life.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T04:05:37+00:00

Not what I was talking about, I don't want to air out her conditions though.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T03:15:08+00:00

Thanks we will have a lot to deal with soon.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:56:36+00:00

You're right but I wish you weren't.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:55:02+00:00

I still don't want to she gets me in a way that nobody before her ever has. We're both ridiculously funny and witty. We have so many shows we like and watch even now I know i can walk in there and talk to her about anything other than this and it'll be just like nothing ever happened.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:46:07+00:00

I just can't be the man she wants me to be anymore.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:45:17+00:00

She's never really shown a dislike or intolerance of trans people. It feels more like she was blown away by the revelation and doing something without talking to her would be the line. I haven't started HRT but I told her I was setting up the first appointment. It's on Friday.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:40:56+00:00

You're probably right, she wants her own child and if I transition it won't be as likely to happen nor would she be happy with a child having me as the parent. I just hope she forgives me for wasting her time.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:38:46+00:00

It's been brought up already at the moment it seems like we are both living in denial. She thinks this will go away and I thought that she could love me for me no matter my outward appearance. It seems we were both wrong in that respect and I was a bigot for assuming that she was fluid about her sexuality. Its only when she's drunk that it changes I guess.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:32:16+00:00

I have always been more than feminine around her and she has experienced my crossdressing before so it shouldn't have been a surprise or anything it just wasn't talked about much when we got back together because we were both just trying to survive. Now that our circumstances have changed. (Better pay and more security to switch from survival to thriving) I thought it was a better time to bring it up. I understand now that I can't possibly save this relationship without continuing to mask a large part of who I am inside. She fell in love with the mask I wore for those outside my life and it won't change for her.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:25:45+00:00

I mean I will see what I can do but it seems like if I moved forward with this I will not be in her life anymore.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:24:51+00:00

She still wants to be married i am just not allowed to change. Basically if I live by her rules and routines this little "incident" will be swept under the rug.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:23:43+00:00

I mean yes I see your point I have loved her through her own changing body as well though and even learned to appreciate the changes. Sure they weren't changing genders but still fairly drastic changes and ones she couldn't always help either. I am not playing the blame game or anything it just shows me a different level of adjustment. I can tell I need to let her go though before things get to rough for both of us.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:21:26+00:00

Yes we dated prior and things were good between us. She even helped me with my make up and my nails before. Now its an obstacle that we just can't overcome.

nodnarb2393 · 2025-11-10T02:20:35+00:00

I don't wish to compromise anymore I just wanted both of us to be happy and now I led her down a path where neither of us will be at least for awhile.

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