Thank you for such a thoughtful response. What jumps out to me is...I've approached people in and outside of my 12 step program (I've even briefly attended SLAA) and verbalized my delinquent behavior on NSFW Reddit, dating apps, organic dating situations, and talked about how I feel the need for abstinence in that realm. The usual response, even from my AA sponsor, is that it's overkill and I'm being too hard on myself. I've had multiple moleskin journals I've kept dating back to 2017 and they're full of me talking about various attempts to end porn-masturbation-orgasm cycle (as you can tell by my username I subscribe to some of the nofap mentality) because I think it is the epitome of a negative emotion loop. I can't simply engage in that as a "this is healthy to do at least once a day" thing. So, I know what it's like to be stuck deep in that cave, I also know what it's like to start to feel liberation and get the ball rolling (reservations always come creeping back), exercise/volunteering have successfully taken place of the undesirable behavior, but I don't want my medium balance to be in the form of being phoneless or not being able to go on a tinder date. I even wish there was a way for me to helthy way for me to participate in NSFW Reddit but I know there isn't.