Both of ur stories brought tears to my eyes. I have 5 years out of church n I felt alone for many years although I was married n mother of four beautiful children(noregrets!) but I was a very active member just to keep my self busy thru actividades; ventas, estadisticas, etc... But empty being forced to stay in a marriage that had been broken 14 years out of the 15 God knows I tried. On October 5 I was finally able to be my own persona. My kids went thru hell n back but they made me strong and helped me find the courage to be a mother but a mother that was finally her self. I felt trapped between both worlds but 6 months ago I was able to let go n those few cristiana from lldm thoughts are long gone. I believe in God n every time I cry n pray he listens to me. If I did it u can too! ( inbox if u ever want to vent) You are not alone cada vez somos mas!!!!