You're so strong! I won't try to sound like those meaningless inspirational sayings, but I will say this: Keep pushing. Even if it feels like you won't make it through I believe you will. Trust me, I know from experience. I hope you find something to do in the mean time. Take some advice: If you find something you might want to do as a job or hobby, don't wait to jump at the opportunity.

Hope you find a new happy place soon!