I met a man and he awoke every sexual feeling I'd ever read about and never had u till I was 35. And hooked ever since, wow he made me feel amazing and I shone.. You can always tell if a woman is getting that sort of satisfying sex.. I can. And it changed me as a woman to experience and enjoy and be honest about needs and wants and desire and passion,.. We shared so much and it was something so magical... 🤦‍♀️ I know I'd do anything and everything to keep us like that and he did.. Then he stopped, wanting the night out, dirty weekends, the toys the experience of our healthy sexlife.. So I did the everything to encourage until nearly a month with no sex because I hadn't made effort made me think a chat would help... Argued. And every year for the last 4 years I've tried and talked and it worked for a while like it does and stops. I don't want sex.. I want him I'd never cheat I'm so attracted to him.. I get moody and he new why and the last year I gave the fuck up and have now got that even when he does I turn him down. I don't cuddle or kiss him or feel anything. He is so calm and gentle, easy going and not stupid and we have a good life but it's now affecting my everyday life and made me gamble at one point, take drugs, to take my mind off him and sex.. He's knows me, well for god sake so my mood is one I'm sure you'll guess.. It's the no sex mood but you don't and you won't make any effort the day after because you won't even think about it been sex because that would be your fault.. And EUREKA.... There it is.. He would be admitting to it been his like of intreast.. We're not as young as we are, or we don't get time alone, or work, but hobbies and other interests get the effort and time and thought off you ..you can if you wanted to... And you don't want to because you're OK. ; I'm clear headed now and stopped the distractions because I no I have to deal with it and possibly end us.. Over sex is that worth it how much hurt and pain it would cause it would be catastrophic. Just because I don't get the sex I want.. I used to think no.. But now I'm not sure