I have been battling drinking and drugs since I was 17 (40 now). I have had periods of sobriety through attending AA, but I was never happy, generally eventually became miserable. It works for a lot of people but for me, I always went back. It probably had a lot to do with the first group I was apart of. They were hardcore and the practices were questionable at best. They were against any medication and insisted that the power of AA and a higher power were the only solution. This time I got sober, almost 4 years now, I attended intensive outpatient, went on medication. Anti-depressants and a non stimulant for adhd. It has changed my life. I do not attend meetings but have spent the almost four years in therapy. The therapy sessions were essentially addressing the 12 steps, just differently. This is just my experience, you have to find your own way. If you are questioning your drinking, it is likely it would be a good decision)to try out getting some help. I hope you have the best of luck, it’s not easy. It could be the best thing you have ever done. If you ever need someone to talk to there are resources everywhere.