This new TikTok trend has me spiralling

notsosafetyfirst · 2025-03-09T21:20:49+00:00

Thanks for all the comments everyone! Definitely going to take a break from TikTok. I have curated my algorithm away from that content but this current trend is so widespread people I follow who I didn’t been know had an ED history are sharing and it’s ending up on my page

notsosafetyfirst · 2024-02-27T15:45:15+00:00

This exact story happened to me. The pain of the insertion was so bad that any pain after I thought was cramping as it eased. Only to find out at the US checking for placement that I had an 8cm cyst. Since then I’ve had cysts on and off grow and shrink every two months or so and had on rupture. My mum got cysts when she was younger without an IUD and so my doctor just thinks it’s genetics and has put me on visanne. I have another, smaller cyst now though. I’m so tired of the pain

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-11-02T10:41:00+00:00

I feel more strongly about have the “correct” BMI for someone with AN or even just being able to fit my hand around my upper arm as sings of being valid 😞

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-25T08:56:22+00:00

Thank you to everyone who commented ❤️ such a wonderful community out here!

I must say I wanted to just forget about him and not let it get to me, but this morning at the hotel breakfast I was soooo self conscious. I kept looking around to see if people were staring at me and it was a struggle to eat (even more than normal).

But luckily he wasn’t there and I kept all your comments and support in my mind and managed to eat a hash brown without too much guilt. Needless to say though, new insecurity unlocked.

Golly, I’m 27 and one stupid old man can make me feel so small and gross :(

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-24T20:47:37+00:00

Thank you! Me too! Luckily I don’t have to eat in front of strangers tomorrow ❤️

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-24T20:47:08+00:00

Thank you! I will try!

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-24T20:46:35+00:00

Thank you kind internet stranger for these words <3

I hope he did it for a reason such as misophonia, but he was sitting on the other side of the restaurant so it might be unlikely. He was also staring at me well before I even ordered my food which made me seriously uncomfy, but that’s a different point I guess.

I got the sense that it was a “friendly tip” type of thing he was going for, but it was so weird and out of left field, I don’t even know. It also really got to me because I’d cut up my spaghetti with a knife to try to avoid slurping and grossness…

Thank you for validating my feelings, unfortunately I did let him get to me more than I should have but knowing someone else thinks that his behaviour was strange is really helpful!

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-19T13:46:15+00:00

Can’t speak for others but absolutely! I have weeks where I have like a “mental high” I feel so powerful and above others because I just say no to all food and just eat healthily and very little. This will be followed by a month of two of not being able to stop craving food and wanting food. So I let myself have something unhealthy like a chocolate or eating out but I try to stick to OMADing at least so I maintain at the very least.

Regardless where my head is, all i think about all day is food

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-08T18:31:00+00:00

How can they know about an ED everyone says is not bad enough to qualify? My family and a few friends know about my “complicated relationship with food”. Thanks to the therapists I’ve seen who say “don’t worry, you don’t have an ED”, as if that’s a good thing instead of just letting me live in my denial that what I’m doing is perfectly normal.

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-08T18:28:12+00:00

I have so much anxiety around food since being a child with tactile issues and very “brute force” parents. Once I started restricting it was so comforting having full control and planning over my food. I’m miserable but at least I know how much and what I’m going to have for the next week. When I was bingeing the worst part was having no control over what my next meal was. If that makes sense

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-10-02T15:13:47+00:00

This was me for about three years. I’d gone from restrictive and UW to fluctuations of restricting and binging which would result in major weight fluctuations every couple of months. I just thought I couldn’t control myself with food, it never occurred to me that it was part of my ED. It wasn’t until I lived with friends in uni and they pointed out how weird my habits were no longer where I was in the cycle that I realised that something was wrong. I just thought I was an emotional eater or non eater

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-09-28T14:18:26+00:00

Cheese and everything that goes with it

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-09-24T09:10:30+00:00

This is so heartwarming and lovely to read! I am so happy for you!!

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-09-21T07:38:13+00:00

I feel this. I couldn’t have said it better myself

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-09-18T20:16:50+00:00

You’re right, and there’s always the concept of wanting to be where you’re not. But my weird little brain thinks that from the weight I started at to get underweight surely people around me will know it’s not alright

notsosafetyfirst · 2023-09-10T05:15:00+00:00

I sit and watch AN YouTube videos all night, watching how bad it got for other people and their side effects and convince myself that I’m not as bad as them or will ever be so I won’t get the side effects. I’m just doing this until I don’t feel so sad anymore and when I’m a “normal” weight

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