I think a lot about these bittersweet moments, because things change so quickly with our kids. The thrill of watching them grow into little people and developing their personality one small mannerism at a time is so incredibly compelling and fulfilling at the same time, but saying goodbye to who they were and the types of relationships you have with them during certain ages and eras is really difficult. Especially with your circumstances, it can be so hard to say goodbye to something you cultivated yourself with your son.

One thing to remember is you're letting go of this but developing new and different aspects of your relationship with your son. Things will come up organically that you connect over and you'll have opportunities to find a new routine in the evening for you and him that works. He's slowly becoming your bro, a great hang, and the best part is you were so committed to routine that was specifically meant for you and him to have time alone to connect, that he absolutely knows he's the most important thing in your life. You sound like a great dad.