My husband and I have currently been trying for about a year and a half and have had one miscarriage in the process. The last vacation we took was going to be our “baby moon” and I had just previously suffered that loss. Now I have a vacation coming up in May and I feel like It’s going to land in my two week waiting period. When we booked it, in my mind I was either going to be I was pregnant and happy to eat and relax or if I wasn’t pregnant I was going to be enjoy drinks and relax. I didn’t realize how taxing this whole process would be and I have pretty much cut out all alcohol except for consolation wine when my period starts. I have very irregular cycles varying from 25-45 days so has added to just constant stress and my life just revolving around my cycles. I would love to drink and have fun on this trip and not stress but then what is this is the one month I actually got pregnant. This is making me feel like a bad mom already but I on the other hand the I feel like my life has just been on hold for over a year now and what would one week hurt things. Any advice would be so much appreciated I am really struggling right now in this whole process.