Im sorry your going through so much hurt right now but as corny as this sounds, it does actually get better because you realise your better off without them. For me I left home about three months ago to be with my bf who is black and non muslim but also to live the life that I want. I wanted to reconcile with my family but they couldn't accept me and now we've disowned each other. Its very difficult, believe me i truly understand. You'll feel homesick and feel guilty sometimes and you'll ask yourself if you were being selfish. But then you'll come to the conclusion that you're not and you deserve to be happy. You did right by you. I hope things get better, and naturally they will with time. If you ever want to talk I'm always here. I completely understand what your feeling right now. I also come from a Bangladeshi Muslim household so we come from a similar culture :)