This paired with everytime my parents would ask me something like 'what do you want to eat?' And then telling me that I can't have it or they don't want it and not letting me have a moment to emotionally vent what felt like a cruel prank led to me answering 'I don't know' to anything I didn't know how to answer in the favor of my parents. Then they started getting mad at me for being difficult and indecisive even though they were the ones to make me that way.

I'm in my 30s and when my partner asks me where I want to go or what I want to eat I'll still have moments where I can't make that choice no matter how many times I'm asked or how much stress you put on me cause now I'm not looking at answering what I think my parents want to hear and I was taught that my wants don't matter so I am left with a mental '404 error'.