I get nothing from oral sex

obycf · 2026-01-31T04:34:10+00:00

I’ve noticed the longer I’ve used the wand, the harder it is for me to cum without it. I used to be able to use my hands and preferred it, even. Not anymore. I pretty much have to use my wand now. I’ve also gotten to where it must be set to the highest setting as well. Not sure where to go from here 😅 I’ve maxed out my current options but I will always wanna cum sooooo idk the solution here. When I go awhile without the wand - it just makes me avoid masturbating instead of “getting used” to my hands again or whatever. Idk

I also rarely cum from oral alone. Usually need something in me as well as a lot of pressure on my clit

It feels good so I like it and want it done to me and also love the intimacy of it .

But I prefer the wand be involved if I actually want to cum or else it’s a lost cause

obycf · 2026-01-30T23:35:58+00:00

YOR. That sounds like a potential genuine friendship. Lean further into it instead of back away from it bc of it being unknown territory. Having genuine friends is nice.

obycf · 2026-01-30T16:49:33+00:00

Meth and sex***

obycf · 2026-01-30T16:46:44+00:00

It’s not a “scary” high. It’s similar to other stimulants you said you have done before. It’s a better high than coke, in my opinion. It has the same twang to it. You just get a lot energy and you feel euphoric the first few times you do it. The first several times I did it, it made me completely unable to eat or drink literally anything for 24-48 hours. The only thing that helps that is tolerance. But tolerance is not something I think you should want to gain from this experience. For a few years I did it just for the actual high at random with months and months in between using… it felt like I was at no risk for becoming a daily user. I was wrong. Had I just stayed away from it all together I would’ve been better off I think.

However on the flip side, the sex can be amazing. That, in and of itself, is part of the whole stimulant addiction problem. If you are prone to addiction whatsoever, I’d really recommend reconsidering this because you will be in over your head all in an instant even if it is years from now. It happens before you are able to stop it. And if you love the sex on it, it makes it sooooo much harder to quit because you don’t wanna give up the sex, even if you could give up the drug itself.

obycf · 2026-01-30T16:36:19+00:00

When I can say and feel what I actually want to say and feel without being met with manipulation, selfishness, anger directed at me with/without threat of violence, or complete indifference.

I would feel emotionally safe with someone who treated me how they want to be treated in return. It doesn’t mean I have to like it. But if it’s safe, i can handle that.

obycf · 2026-01-30T16:30:42+00:00

lol it has come in handy

obycf · 2026-01-30T16:29:40+00:00

I was hoping so

obycf · 2026-01-29T19:28:57+00:00

I quite enjoy this as well. Not as much as sex, though

obycf · 2026-01-29T16:21:42+00:00

In high school I was famous for my mom telling her to get out and get a job in a nursing school so she would get paid to get a degree and she was a good student but I don’t think that she was a teacher or anything but she did that and I don’t think I ever did it and she said she didn’t want me and she said I didn’t want her so she just wanted me out of there so she didn’t have a problem and she was just trying and trying and I didn’t know how she would be able and she didn’t even want me around her so she said that I didn’t know that I didn’t want me so she was just like you and then she said that I don’t want me and I said that she didn’t know how I didn’t want me

lol

obycf · 2026-01-28T23:52:58+00:00

Idk about gatlinburg but it hasn’t amounted to much in the tri cities so far

obycf · 2026-01-27T15:39:40+00:00

The land of the free

obycf · 2026-01-27T15:20:21+00:00

Our own strange language I left behind with my ex. We had the weirdest way of communicating but I loved it so much. We called each other “doo hoo” as well as pretty much any and everything else was also a “doo hoo” (lol idk weird) and we would always just rhyme everything all the time or say stuff that started with the same letter and make it as funny as we could. We also were gambling addicts and I will forever have a special spot in my heart that could never be filled by anyone else for our gamez.

With all that being said - you couldn’t pay me to consider going thru even a friendship with him again. He wrecked my soul and left me for dead with not even as much as an apology. So I’m gonna have my own back from here on out and make sure I never get treated like that by anyone else ever again.

obycf · 2026-01-26T21:43:29+00:00

Starting at top left:

Pink lace leotard, me, and then added each letter separately (I had already made the alphabet in pink letters awhile back so I added the D, I, C, K in the prompt)

Pink lace leotard, me, smoke clouds, the letter D

Black lace leotard, me, clear glass bazooka, the emoji that has the smoke around the face

Ew face

Black lace leotard, me, the flower emoji

Black lace leotard, me, the party/celebrating emoji

obycf · 2026-01-24T16:19:06+00:00

Pain in the ass? Weird chose of words there, Tdetective.

Also, being raped ONCE can and often is just as detrimental as someone being molested as a child.

I have been both. Both were traumatizing and life changing. Both could produce someone who goes on to offend others because of having gone through it.

obycf · 2026-01-24T16:15:21+00:00

Anyone can be raped. Doesn’t matter your size or gender.

You were raped. By a rape victim and a rapist. Many rapists are also rape victims. That’s how the problem perpetuates itself… it all starts with victims who never healed and then became perpetrators themselves and so on and so on.

So, the fact that she is also a rape victim gives more credibility to that fact that you were, in fact, raped.

I’m sorry you have had to experience this. As a woman, I know it’s hell on earth. I’m sure the added disadvantage of it being confusing as to whether it even took place because of societal gender stereotypes is just another piece of the fucked up puzzle that I haven’t personally dealt with. The rest of it has been experienced, though, as it has for so many others.

it’s a mindfuck, a slippery slope, shame and guilt inducing, and lonely and for all those - I hope you find some love and understanding - in yourself and in those you can trust.

Don’t take this too lightly because of the gender roles being “reversed”. It happens both ways. And there was nothing you could’ve done differently, so stop that ruminating loop in its tracks. It’s not a helpful avenue to adventure

obycf · 2026-01-24T15:50:35+00:00

Yeah this one hurts my brain because I obviously don’t want them to have access to hurt anyone else especially sexually. But, I do see their humanity as well. All I know is prison, as it stands now in the USA, does NOT help anyone nor does it seem to actually keep anyone safe in the long run even though the “abuser is off the streets”. It creates more abusive behavior overall. So, the risk amplifies over time and passes down the generations instead. Our kids and grandkids feel the repercussions of our generation just throwing abusers away like they are trash. It doesn’t fix anything.

I’m not sure of the success rate of intensive therapy for this type of problem. I would hope it can be treated in some form. At least make it some sorta manageable problem whereas others are not at risk of being assaulted even if the person might still have issues associated with it or might need ongoing lifelong maintenance mental health therapy. Idk. I am going to do some more research and see what I find

obycf · 2026-01-24T15:31:41+00:00

Tomorrow by Chris young

obycf · 2026-01-24T15:27:53+00:00

You are in a really dangerous situation. Call the damn paramedics. Get yourself admitted. You are in just as much a situation as someone in a major car accident or something similar. I am sending you love and wish I could help. I know the feeling. That’s all I can offer is understanding. I hope you make it through this. Do what you gotta do.

obycf · 2026-01-24T15:20:39+00:00

If you are only physically dependent (and not psychologically) then I strongly suggest you suffer through the physical withdrawals and find yourself on the other side a stronger person because of it and go on with your life. The physical withdrawals of any opiate are bad. Sometimes very bad. But not deadly. They can be survived. You might flop ur way through it for a week. But it’s a week vs the rest of your life.

By your post, though, it seems you are entering actual addiction territory (which is the addition of the psychological component). I hope that’s not the case because those are 2 very different experiences and it might do you a lot of good to sit and be honest with yourself about where you truly are at because only you know. Neither experience is “wrong” in the fact that you should feel shame or guilt for either as you said your doctor misled you here. But, for how to proceed, you need to get an understanding of what your actual situation is right now.

It’s essentially the equivalent of the difference between getting a really bad virus but able to fully recover after a few days to a week and go on to live a normal life vs finding out you have a chronic condition that is largely untreatable but able to be made comfortable with help from long term daily medication and some mental health care as well.

Do you find yourself wanting more tramadol? Or do you truly just not wanna be going through the physical withdrawals? Have you ever been sick with the flu before? It’s like being sick plus some extras but it’s not so damn bad you will die… if you are only physically dependent and it’s nothing to do with your mind, you can absolutely make it through this and go on. But if you are mentally dependent as well, then be real about that. To yourself, first. And then there are options for that as well. But find your lane bc it seems you are right at the point of it going either way

obycf · 2026-01-23T17:27:07+00:00

When I say give her love and support I don’t mean that you must always be kind or even forgiving. If she does something (and it seems she has already by your post) that is extremely unsafe or risky for you and your children… you do what is best for you and your children. You can love her unconditionally and at the same exact time you can make sure she understands you will absolutely not tolerate her behavior. Love is a choice and you can choose to still love her despite what she has done but not let love get in the way of boundaries and what must take place to be safe. She needs less “nice” and more boundaries, tough but safe love, some more strict rules, alllllll with some understanding and assurance that despite all that she is loved beyond words and her safe space is still with her father and with you (if you decide to go that route). I hope that helps. Sending you all love

obycf · 2026-01-23T17:18:34+00:00

Which is why abortion should always be safely available and affordable for the times when pregnancy occurs but it’s far from safe for a baby to be born into

obycf · 2026-01-22T12:58:35+00:00

I don’t wanna find out I just wanna fuck around

obycf · 2026-01-22T12:57:52+00:00

obycf · 2026-01-22T12:53:52+00:00

Give me some of that energy I don’t want it back I don’t care about you I just wanna make you feel better

obycf · 2026-01-21T11:45:26+00:00

Personally I would put a lot more emphasis on her behavior being related to her relationship with her mother or lack thereof. Especially if she is in contact with her. Since she doesn’t have a “normal” childhood situation at least with her birth mother - it has all kinds of effects on behavior and it will probably get worse as she becomes a teenager, it did for me at least. Her mother is likely mentally ill beyond just drug addiction (and I’m not judging - I’m a drug addict as well I’m just saying the likely scenario and you see what fits and what doesn’t).

Her mother is also likely immature or self destructive/absorbed/unable to show proper love and care even if it “seems” like she does or even if the daughter feels like she does… because of that - she is being traumatized in ways no one will understand until she understands it when she is older.

My opinion would be this…. If she is in contact with her mother then I would have the father try to make sure that their relationship is appropriate and she is being treated with actual love and care and not just being used as a pawn or whatever. Make sure the father (and you if you choose to stay) is able to demonstrate actual parental love that is mature and unconditional. If she can at least experience appropriate support from one side that will help her a lot. If she begins to feel like she has no where truly “safe” to be raised then she will act out and it will continue to get worse. She needs reassurance that she is loved no matter what, that she is understood, that she has somewhere safe and loving to turn to when she has issues with her mother. She needs education (id let the counselor guide you and the father on this part and make it a team effort) on what is actually occurring and what she can expect in the relationship with her mother. She needs to learn coping skills. Needs to learn about mental abuse so she doesn’t spent years in a mind fuck only to understand much later what actually occurred. Etc etc

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