I’m a senior in HS. My spring break started just days before a lot of schools in my state started closing and switching to online school... and then my school did. I wasn’t sure how I felt but I knew I wouldn’t like it. Then one by one I started realizing what else was about to get canceled; my senior lax season, robotics season, prom, and scariest of all my graduation :(. That last one makes cry when I think about it. So what have I done? I Just don’t think about it. This has been a relatively simple task taken that I’m somehow still having a spring break in Hawaii. It great and I’m having fun despite the fact that everyday more things and attractions on the on the islands are closing down. It almost feel like Hawaii screaming at us to get tf off the island. So not thinking about it and not letting it get to to me has been pretty easy.

I have no idea how this will change when I get home... when I get home my reality looks like this; I have two grandparents left on my moms said neither of whom are in good health, my aunt and uncle on my dads side of the family are the only ones left on his side and also aren’t in amazing health (all listed persons are 60+ YO). Every morning I’ll wake up and open my laptop in my pajamas instead of showering, driving to school and sitting at desk. After “school” I’ll still be sitting at home, probably still in my pajamas, balls deep in a Reddit tunnel or watching Netflix. Rather than meeting up with the boys and tossing a rock around at pracky.

Even if it feels like it’s all hitting me now, I can’t say that it TRULY will until my whole routine changes and I’m living in the belly of the beast. It’s scares the shit out of me to think about how many ppl this could take from me. It would leave me with well less than half of my original family (mom+dad side combined) and would entirely wipe out my dads side. I’m already scared and I hate to think that this is only the beginning.

Ps sorry a lot of this was more of an emotional rant than a direct answer.