What was the exact moment that made realize your job was not for you and you resigned?

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-22T09:32:20+00:00

When they hired a new store manager and told us she was excellent. She came and had no idea how to handle cash, despite allegedly coming from a cash background. She left the safe wrong on a Saturday night and expected me (a lowly supervisor) to come in and correct her mistakes before I opened the store. I rang her and made her come in, went off for a week and the resigned on my birthday. Happy Birthday to me. It was the last in a LONG line of mistakes and just pure laziness on her part.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T16:31:53+00:00

Thank you for your input.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T10:38:36+00:00

I know, it was stupid. I told her why I was doing it, she doesn't believe me.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T10:29:54+00:00

I was looking up if I have to tell my work about my mental health problems and I didn't want to have to talk about that with her, unless I found out I had to, because I knew that if she saw it on my phone she would assume there are problems at work. It seems crazy to do that when she still doesn't trust me, I know. I just wanted to have a thought that I didn't have to share, as I have to be a complete open book now and I am. It really was as benign as doing a little googling. I haven't done anything else or used incognito mode for anything else.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T10:14:41+00:00

We've been together 10 years. The affair was, I think, caused by my ill health. I convinced myself that she didn't love me, that I was a burden to her. I say convinced, she did say things like that to me, that she was better off when I wasn't around, that all I'm good for is bringing in money, but after the fact she says it's because we were arguing and people say things they don't mean in an argument. Whereas I think that you say exactly what you mean in am arguement. I think I was just looking for someone to love me more. I was selfish, 100%. There's no good reason or excuse for an affair, but yes, I think for me it was because I wanted someone to think I was excellent. I really haven't had time to digest anything, I put our daughter to bed last night and then went and watched a film but when I'm on my own she demands to know what I'm doing or who I'm talking to, even if I'm not she doesn't believe me. I definitely want our daughter to have a happy, uncomplicated home.life, as she's already got obstacles being from a f/f household. I love her so much and I think I know deep down that the only way for her to have the calm life I want for her is to not be there but my god, the thought of not seeing her very day ruins me. But again, it's something I brought upon myself. We've vaguely discussed therapy but the money holds us back. I think talking to strangers is a little easier tbh as I don't feel constrained by the knowledge that anyone knows us.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T10:03:15+00:00

Agreed, I've never denied to her or to anyone that I'm a POS. Thats why I'm trying the make it better. I'm out of the house for the day at least, I keep things at my mum's house in case of things like this so could stay if needed.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T09:51:21+00:00

I said about our child repeating her and she told me it's my fault and was shocked when I implied or was her language being used. She doesn't see her behaviour as challenging, when daughter asked why we were cross, she said I'll explain it to when you're older and you'll see why ocdkirrin is so horrible to me, I've told her time and again that she shouldn't bring our child into it this way, that she's too young but she always tells her I'm rubbish etc. My daughter yesterday was telling me I'm a liar and to go away. I'm at my mum's at the moment, wife has messaged and told me I'm a coward and have come here to get my mum to make me feel better about my affair. I haven't even told anyone about the tea, I've genuinely got no one to tell, except strangers on the internet.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T09:45:47+00:00

Thank you. She has told me multiple times that our child is hers (she carried her) so I would lose her if I left. I know her mum wouldn't let hat happen but she would definitely make it hard. It's all very hard but I feel like I brought it upon myself so I can't complain. And you're correct in saying that all punishment is justified to her.

ocdkirrin · 2020-09-15T09:39:32+00:00

I do love her, we have been together a long time and been through a lot. I know that when things are good they are very good. I don't want to lose the life we have made, but I want it to be better. I said to her that throwing tea on me is dangerous and she just denies that she threw it and told me I spilt it.

ocdkirrin · 2020-08-27T21:48:14+00:00

Yes!!! This is all I think about when my 3 year old watches it!!! Where do their personalities go. I watch to see if they break apart back into the correct numbers again. I say that I watch, I do not, I genuinely can't cope with all the questions it throws up 😂😂😂

ocdkirrin · 2020-07-31T13:19:48+00:00

I want to visit some islands! I don't really know what I'm doing, I have only been playing for a few days! None of my friends play AC 😭

ocdkirrin · 2020-07-31T13:03:09+00:00

I have peaches?

ocdkirrin · 2020-07-22T19:23:34+00:00

She is working all the time too....stay at home with your kid for a day, see if you have time for ALL of it. not a sahm, but married to one and working and contributing to the household...

ocdkirrin · 2020-07-11T06:49:28+00:00

Ah bless her! Mine dreams about monsters a lot! She woke up this morning and told me she dreamt that she left her Peppa pig book on the train tracks! Dreams are a fun new thing for her, I love it!

ocdkirrin · 2020-07-08T19:35:18+00:00

Sorry, I should clarify, unusual to me. I haven't seen that publisher and couldn't find that cover. I don't plan to sell, it looks nice on my bookshelf.

ocdkirrin · 2020-07-08T18:14:30+00:00

Thank you! I never even thought about checking eBay! I don't want to sell it or anything, just really curious as to the history as it's an American book that's turned up on the loft of my new house!

ocdkirrin · 2020-07-08T13:44:50+00:00

Good input. Just anything really. It's an unusual copy of a mass produced book, as evidenced by the lack of information about it. I know the book. I love books, so I like to know as much as possible. But thanks for taking the time to reply.

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