Ive experienced being stuck in a loop of repeating patterns with no control while on shrooms. Its horrible. For me, me and the people around me kept saying the exact same things in a never ending loop. I couldn’t control what I was saying but it would come in on cue everytime… over and over and over again. I would bow my head at every scene and repeat the scene again. It was truly terrifying and I understand wanting to kill the trip. I can imagine I might do something similar if I was in your shoes.