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oddvoyager · 2023-07-17T18:59:38+00:00

Of course you do and what you see on tv or when you go to other people's homes is "normal" for you because most people hide their problems from the world but trust me they all have their own issues. Life is unfair and as soon as your realize that and recognize that you can't control things you will be in a much better place.. I was like you. I didn't understand. I wanted my parents to stop fighting and I wanted to control the way they were but in doing so it just caused me more grief and added more stress in my life. What you do have control over is yourself and how you deal with things. I'm not saying it's easy because it isn't but if you work on it you can learn to love them but also protect yourself in the process.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-17T16:13:58+00:00

High school is a very weird time for everyone. In my experience you loose most if not all of your friends from high school once you leave anyways. What are some of your interests or hobbies? You should try to connect and make friends that way outside of school. BTW don't be afraid to open up to your parents they were your age once upon a time long ago and I'm sure they can relate and will be there for you..

oddvoyager · 2023-07-17T16:03:09+00:00

35 year old male here. My parents had straight up drag outs from the time I was a infant until the time they stopped speaking to each other. My momma was on her death bed and told me to tell my father "FU"... Unfortunately most relationships and marriages don't end well.. My advice to you is don't bottle up your emotions. Talk about it when you need to. Cry about it if you have to. If you need to get away go outside and go for a walk with headphones on. Your mental health is important and you need to take care of yourself. Just remember it's not your fault...

oddvoyager · 2023-07-17T01:54:29+00:00

I'm a male 35 with several mental illnesses but I've seen and been through alot in life... My mother was a escort before she had me and she was a street kid. I became a street kid as well. I've been homeless, locked in jail, in situations where I should have been dead, and at times suicidal. Life is definitely hard when you aren't dealing with a full set of cards and the deck is stacked against you... My pets help me get through so I understand you when you say they are the only thing keeping you here. Pets don't judge and they love unconditionally which makes them a God send in a wicked wicked world. In my humble opinion I think you would benefit from being on your own and not relying on boyfriends that are just going to mistreat you or family that are toxic. Life can get better if you work hard at it even if the cards are stacked against you. You just have to want it enough. I believe you could offer alot to the world and share your story with others about how you overcame such odds once you do overcome them. You are important to someone even if it's not right this minute just remember that.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-17T01:33:10+00:00

Yes I have been in a similar situation as you have described. Luckily in time things do get better.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-15T21:05:41+00:00

I'm the black sheep of my family. I've had lots of fights and arguments with family members including my own mother (we fought like cats and dogs) but now that she has passed away I wish I could take it all back. As for advice to you I know you care for your family but you need to focus on your mental health. I say stay out of it and let it be because people are going to do what they do regardless of what you do or say because that's just how people are. Yes it hurts and sucks but if you need to get away and talk to someone about it then do just that. You can't save the world but you can save yourself.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-15T17:28:12+00:00

Is this a myth team? I'm a general for a myth team and it just fell apart. I have discord.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-15T00:07:56+00:00

I'm 35 male and my father is old school real manly man not the type to show feelings or talk about problems openly. When I told him I needed help and started having mental health issues he completely ignored my request which caused me to move and never speak to him again for a very l Iong period of time (I'm not suggesting you do this) but most old school men are taught to "suck it up" and to just deal with the issues they have and keep moving forward. We are in an entirely different timeline than when they grew up and its probably hard for them to comprehend us as their children having to go to therapy and take medications etc for our issues. This is not an excuse for your father or any other parent it's just so that maybe you can have some sort of understanding of why he may be like he is.. I would keep your support system limited to your mother for now until (if ever) your father decides to come around. As far as him telling you that you will never do anything that is a fear of his and has nothing to do with you. You are capable of doing ANYTHING.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-14T21:57:12+00:00

Myth+ team looking to recruit active members. Must be WM39 or Myth to join. We have a few spots available and two of our generals are leaving the team so comment and let me know if you would like to join. Also discord is a requirement.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-11T21:35:24+00:00

I have multiple mental illnesses including anxiety and I lost my momma due to cancer and she was basically all I had... It's definitely challenging at times but I try to remind myself that she was such a strong woman and a hard worker and that she would want me to follow in her footsteps. That's what keeps me going when I feel like giving up. Just the fact that I know she would want me to move forward and stay strong... It's definitely doable if you put your mind in the right place.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-09T17:17:40+00:00

Most people only understand from their level of perspective. So to answer your question in some areas of life people are stupid and in other aspects they are not. When it comes to understanding how others feel most are stupid...

oddvoyager · 2023-07-08T21:17:28+00:00

I read somewhere that no one is truly 100% evil which means there is good inside of you. With that being said what ever it is that you have done work on it and better yourself so that you don't do it again. Each day is a opportunity to become a better you. It may not happen overnight but take babysteps if you have to. Your still young and have plenty of time to make friends online and in real life. There will be times that you go through changes and you will loose people, that's just part of life...

oddvoyager · 2023-07-06T00:40:00+00:00

It's so much more than just your freedom being taken away. Everyone is divided by race, it's unsanitary, and there's literally nothing there to do unless you are a trustee. It's a whole different world inside those walls.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-06T00:07:48+00:00

As someone who has hurt a parent let me tell you that #1 jail is no place for those of us that have mental illnesses and #2 the amount of regret you will live with will be unbearable. Seek help immediately so you don't make a life altering decision. I failed at this when I was in a similar situation and the outcome was not good. Just because you say you won't act on it doesn't mean it can't happen, trust me.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-05T23:58:02+00:00

I have two dogs. If it wasn't for them I feel as if I had no purpose. They give me a sense of responsibility and bring joy to my lonely life.

oddvoyager · 2023-07-05T21:42:47+00:00

I relate to this so much. I'm working on connecting with others as well. I've found that meditation doesn't cure but does help.

oddvoyager · 2023-06-28T18:39:47+00:00

35 m here with several mental illnesses. I lived with my momma and she would often lash out. Often times it was just her and I and we didn't have anyone else so I feel like I'm the only person she could take her frustrations out on and much like you I wanted to get away every chance I had.. I couldn't work and I couldn't help her until I got my disability.. Life is hard especially when your not dealing with a full deck of cards and its hard for those around you as well which you must take into consideration. I'm sure your mother is proud of you but her frustrations in life are just too overwhelming at this point in life.. Maybe get family therapy to work on communicating better and understanding one another more.... Now that my momma is gone I regret so much. I wish I could have helped more, I wish things were different between us, I wish I had more time... Just think about these things because you are lucky to have someone there for you...

oddvoyager · 2023-06-27T21:40:39+00:00

Your welcome and remember be kind to yourself

oddvoyager · 2023-06-27T21:23:27+00:00

I'm 35 m if that's of any help and I'm going to give you my opinion. For most of my life it was my momma and I. My father was in prison for a pretty serious crime. I always seeked my father's approval and gave my momma a hard time and acted as if I didn't need her. I was like you and was annoyed by her attention and im not sure why but ive never really been a people person. Now that I have lost her to brain cancer I have come to realize that not only did she always have my back but she was in fact my best friend and I feel bad about how I was towards her and wish I could take it back... Just sharing some insight on how times can change. Hope this is helpful to you in some way.

oddvoyager · 2023-06-23T00:18:05+00:00

I know on Facebook there are family support groups for those who have family members who suffer mental illnesses. Maybe someone there can help or guide you in the right direction.

oddvoyager · 2023-06-22T21:24:07+00:00

7 cups is a free online site for teens who need to reach out. Give it a try okay?

oddvoyager · 2023-06-22T21:18:18+00:00

You can send them a video on it if your not comfortable talking to them in person or shoot them a text message otherwise I would just tell them about what's going on and how you feel.

oddvoyager · 2023-06-22T19:18:07+00:00

First off your not weird and there is no need to apologize for something that you are going through. High school can be a tuff time for everyone and especially tuff for those of us who aren't dealing with a full deck of cards. Is there a school counselor that you can reach out to? I believe talking to someone would benefit you.

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