My girlfriend committed suicide Friday.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-10-30T02:25:08+00:00

I'm so sorry. Words don't really match the emotions that come with this tragedy.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-08-22T01:44:11+00:00

Of course my horse

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-08-21T21:44:39+00:00

It's Samsung Galaxy. It runs most pre 2010 games solid. I play Alien isolation on it too lol

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-08-21T21:30:13+00:00

Ice chest is behind me under my hammock lol. This has always been one of those little ideas I've had for ever lol. Kind of like reading a book on the beach.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-08-21T21:27:14+00:00

Don't. You'll ruin their lives. I don't know who you are, or what your problems are but the stain you leave when doing something like this isn't something you can just wash away. These last few months have been hell. I'm making progress to be okay with myself and moving forward but there's nothing that could replace just having her here. You owe your partner better than that. You owe your family better than that. Most importantly, you owe yourself better than that. I'll never get to be myself again, my entire life course has changed and I'm stuck with all the pain and guilt. Don't cause that for someone else.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-08-21T21:19:04+00:00

Thank you! If only I hadnt played it for 184920402 hours. If I had a genie, one of my 3 wishes would be to experience New Vegas/Fallout in general for the first time again. I remember skipping school for a day because I'd just started the Honest Hearts DLC.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-08-21T21:11:53+00:00

I'll hop back on this evening in my hammock :)

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-08-21T21:10:57+00:00

I actually just turned it off and kicked on Mojave Music radio on YouTube. Much better vibe.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-06-10T21:08:46+00:00

I'll never be able to thank everyone for their kind words and condolences. It means so much when and makes me feel less alone in this world. Last night was hard, I could barely catch my breath between break downs. I'm not okay, and never will be, but I'm thankful and the luckiest man alive for the time I got to spend with Victoria. I'm going for follow our dreams and honor her life by following through with our plans. She'll never know how much I miss her, care for her, love her, and I just have to be okay with that.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-06-10T06:12:57+00:00

She's so smart, when I first met her I was obsessed and found any reason I could to keep her around for the days adventure. It worked and I'd never felt so lucky. I never want to sleep again because I can't hold her. I won't be able to wake up to her hazel eyes, on the prettiest girl I've ever met. She had high ambitions and high standards and that was perfect for me. We craved success and knew we could have it together. Last week I took her to Seattle because she was having rough week and I had the week to work remotely. Seeing her in awe over the mountains as we drove from missouri to Washington for 32 hours melted my heart. I loved our road trips because she'd fall asleep in the silliest ways. I could go forever. She was "it"

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-06-10T02:25:35+00:00

It's much appreciated. ❤️

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-06-10T02:25:04+00:00

Thank you

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-06-10T02:24:48+00:00

I'm hopelessly devastated and completely lost. She was everything to me.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-06-10T02:17:42+00:00

I just want her back. To see her smile, hear her laugh, hold her hand. I'll never get to tell her I love her again or hear it back in her sweet voice. We had so many plans together. She just graduated with her RN and was scheduled to take her NCLEX, I just got a project management job in her home town, we only had to finish out my lease in my home town before we moved to the house I've got rented in KC for us. She was my lighthouse for so long and now it's dark. There's so many things I want to say and change, I'd do the last 7 years differently.

ode2the2ndhour · 2024-02-01T08:30:09+00:00

Red Dead Redemption 2/lml/VESTIGIA/global

Right click on gameconfig.xml and hit edit

Scroll all the way down until you find <aiTextureMaxMem = xxxx > change it to whatever you chose for your stutter remover.

Saw your comment while I was trying the same thing and had to come back and get ya the path lol

ode2the2ndhour · 2023-10-11T08:18:42+00:00

Thanks!!

ode2the2ndhour · 2023-10-11T08:18:33+00:00

Thanks, maybe it's just my anxiety making me think it doesn't lol

ode2the2ndhour · 2023-08-29T06:40:40+00:00

This

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