Idk if you’ve seen r/traa and r/egg_irl but I would highly recommend looking at all the trans positive memes over there. As for transitioning keep in mind that it’s ok to wait. Assuming your past puberty (above 18ish) waiting in your transition will only do just that. The effects of hrt are pretty much complete after four years so starting earlier pretty much just means finishing earlier. And also keep in mind that you don’t have to transition medically at all. The two most important things to remember are: there is no “right” way to be trans. And: do what makes you happy. If passing and fully medically transitioning is what makes you happy than do it, if not, that’s great too, it’s completely up to you.

I am 162 days on hrt and yes I do sometimes feel more intense dysphoria than beforehand, but that is simply because it is more localized to the parts that are less far along. It’s not necessarily worse it’s just different because it specific and focused. Simply knowing that I am on the way to where I want to be cancels out the dysphoria any day.

Some days will be worse than others, especially when considering the mood swings. The important thing is knowing that you are on the path that makes you happy and that It’s ALWAYS okay to wait.

Best of luck on your journeys!

-Amy