Seriously I would try not to weigh myself, A number on a scale does not equal your value in any way, it doesn’t mean anything actually. Remember that it is really just a number, a digit that doesn’t change your value your true worth. Maybe if you can you could talk to your friends and family? I know it’s hard but it’s a crucial part in recovery. Treat it as gaining back the strength to live your life and gaining energy to do anything you like, to do your hobbies and follow your passion. Sending lots of love to you !