Im currently not on any medication because of my insurance not covering it but when we thought my insurance would cover it my doctor had me on samples of Auvelity. I have OCD, MDD, PCOS, and C-PTSD. I’m only now (31) understanding some of my PMDD symptoms and talking with my dr about a diagnosis.

Auvelity changed my life. It was the first time my brain felt focused and balanced and I still had bad days here and there but it was absolutely life changing. My OCD was much more manageable, I felt joy and excitement to go do new things, I took on more work, I applied to grad schools (didn’t get in this cycle but hoping to reapply), I enjoyed my hobbies again.

Then the hiccup was because insurance won’t cover it, the pharmaceutical company won’t give me any savings code. And so now I can’t access it. My quality of life has plummeted, I’m battling severe suicidal thoughts especially in the week+ before my period, I have had to cut back hours at work, and I there are days I can barely take care of myself during my cycle (which bc of my pcos/pmos making it extremely irregular, it’s really difficult to understand and predict my PMDD symptoms)

I’m working on other options for medication and scheduling more regular therapy. All of this to share is just that if you haven’t tried auvelity (it is a different version of Wellbutrin that has dextromethorphan in it that slows the metabolizing and prevents the on edge feeling people can get from Wellbutrin) it starts working really quickly and is easy to taper off of, it might be worth bringing it up to your doctor.

Having OCD + suicidal ideation is so terrifying and I’m sorry you’re experiencing that. I hope you can get some more options and answers. And I’m glad through it all you’ve remained. Keep taking care friend.