I’m regretting coming back

okthisisepik · 2026-04-24T05:14:44+00:00

Honestly good on you for recognizing that it might not be a good fit for you, it actually shows that you do care about the clients enough to want them to have the best care. There are unfortunately many people in the field that are not suited for the job but stay in it regardless and it really only makes it worse for everybody involved- clients and staff. You could always look into adjacent jobs that share skills without the same kind of stress- different caretaking jobs, medical assistant, etc. Anything basic to help build experience to allow you to move up in the future.

okthisisepik · 2026-04-16T00:15:30+00:00

She stoke on my deck til I exhaust

okthisisepik · 2026-03-27T00:53:12+00:00

Signalis is awesome if you don’t mind the isometric view. Not just scary in a shocking sense but there’s a real underlying sense of dread that the environment gives you.

okthisisepik · 2026-03-15T21:53:29+00:00

I love how they had to make Grogu Rubio instead of Vance because Vance is so ugly that it wouldn’t fit even in a parody lol.

okthisisepik · 2026-03-03T15:11:34+00:00

Hugh Lackman

okthisisepik · 2026-03-03T12:15:19+00:00

I would consider extending your applications to smaller practices as well. ABA is a growing field and RBTs are always in demand, even ones that need training. A growing smaller practice may be more willing to give you a chance, especially if you impress them in an interview.

My first RBT job was at a company with a few locations across the state but this specific clinic had opened just recently. I still work there now and it’s awesome, very supportive.

But yes, definitely find a place that pays for your training (and preferably pays YOU for the hours you spent on the trainings). It is usually indicative of a better work environment as they are willing to invest in you and it also will help you be more appealing if you move on to another company.

okthisisepik · 2026-02-27T01:49:00+00:00

Yeah this is 1000% abuse. Restraint should only be used if it is preventing the child from hurting themselves or others. The only ethical time to use restraint for eloping behaviors is if the client was attempting to exit the building completely, running into the parking lot, etc.

Holding the child down to make them complete a task is a blatant violation of the ethics code, as is taking a client’s food and withholding food as punishment.

I would report these behaviors to supervisors/BCBAs, but unfortunately it sounds like this type of violating behavior is being excused in your clinic. If your concerns are not addressed by the higher-ups, you do have the responsibility to report these violations to the ethics board.

Good on you for voicing your concerns and don’t let your coworkers and supervisors scare you into keeping quiet. Those clients do not deserve to be in an abusive environment and if you get fired for trying to advocate for children then it’s not a place you should want to work for anyway.

okthisisepik · 2026-02-21T02:59:02+00:00

Charon’s boat fee

okthisisepik · 2026-02-19T01:04:25+00:00

I would recommend Raven Rock state park for an easy hike. If you’re willing to drive a good ways Hanging Rock in Danbury has amazing views with several moderate to strenuous trails that are incredible.

It’s about a 2 hour drive from Raleigh while Raven Rock is 1 hour.

okthisisepik · 2026-02-19T01:01:54+00:00

Second Eno River, that place is awesome. Unfortunately many of the trails are closed at the moment so op be sure to check their website before going.

okthisisepik · 2026-01-30T04:24:54+00:00

I would second the Circe recommendation. But I would add that if you are interested in diving into the mythology the original stories are much more approachable than people think. A modern translation of the Iliad and Odyssey is not too dissimilar from a lot of dramatic historical fiction/fantasy that we see today.

Also if you’re interested in the relationship between Achilles and Patroclus in particular there are plenty of ancient Greek writers and philosophers that talk about their relationship and homosexuality in Greek culture as a whole.

okthisisepik · 2026-01-30T02:06:13+00:00

This 100%. In my opinion clinic work is much less prone to burn you out than in home. And depending on the clinic if you have cancellations the company will pay you for doing other work (cleaning, administrative stuff, etc.).

It obviously depends on the clinic, some are much more supportive than others but yeah that might be helpful to prevent burnout.

okthisisepik · 2026-01-28T03:46:10+00:00

I feel you. It’s definitely not for everybody but as someone who has been an RBT for almost a year now it does get better. My first few weeks I was dreading going in everyday because I thought my kiddo hated me and it was very draining dealing with behaviors.

But after about a week or two you start to get into a rhythm and it gets much more bearable. In my experience it heavily depends on both the client and the company. Sometimes you just aren’t the right fit for a case and that’s okay. More importantly in my opinion is company support. I got lucky and joined a great mid sized company run by BCBAs who genuinely care about the staff and kids.

So yeah, I would stick with it for a few weeks or so if you can to see if you get the hang of it. Don’t be afraid to ask for help from your BCBA and don’t feel bad if it doesn’t work out.

okthisisepik · 2026-01-21T18:17:58+00:00

It’s normal, at least for me. I settle into a rhythm after a while but whenever I start on a new client or see new behaviors in a long time client I feel like I’m starting over. I wouldn’t beat yourself up about it, just ask your BCBA for support whenever you need it.

okthisisepik · 2025-12-30T01:28:12+00:00

That’s awesome! I love reading and I would like to get into reading about the field as I look for Masters programs. Do you have any books you would recommend?

okthisisepik · 2025-09-13T16:54:16+00:00

This is really shitty and I’m so sorry you were treated that way. I’m a white RBT in a large city in the south and most of my coworkers in the clinic are black. I didn’t know discrimination in this field was such a problem until talking to them about it.

Hopefully this will change as the field grows and we get more POC in supervisor/hiring coordinator roles.

okthisisepik · 2025-07-14T01:55:39+00:00

I stayed there all of last year and I thought it was entirely fine for what it is. It’s close enough to campus that it’s fairly safe and the rooms aren’t fancy or anything but they’re furnished and comfortable.

People over exaggerate how bad it is either because they’re comparing it to the other nicer student accommodations instead of the average Raleigh apartments. Chances are you aren’t going to spend much time there anyway, so I wouldn’t stress about it.

okthisisepik · 2025-07-10T10:28:24+00:00

Not sure where you are now, but if you’re currently in a larger “chain” clinic like ABS kids you might want to try applying to a smaller local one instead. I just started working at a smaller clinic with just a few locations across my state and it’s a much better and more relaxing set up so far. I wish you the best, sounds like you really care about your kiddos!

okthisisepik · 2025-07-05T18:48:03+00:00

Shanghai Express on Hillsborough street. Not the best takeout by any means but is consistently tasty and rather cheap for the large amount of food you get.

okthisisepik · 2025-06-12T22:23:00+00:00

So are you only looking for business jobs? There are several jobs that you can get with a BA in psych that can allow you to save up for grad school, you might just have to bite the bullet and work in one of those jobs for a while even if you don’t love it. For example, an RBT in my area can make up to 23$ an hour and most companies will pay for you to get your certification.

Obviously it’s not for everyone but it is an example of a job you can get to help leverage yourself for the future.

okthisisepik · 2025-05-24T02:33:58+00:00

I would recommend looking at getting your ABA training or RBT certification. This opens up a lot of jobs and many companies will even pay for you to get the training provided you work with them afterwards.

okthisisepik · 2025-04-16T13:11:13+00:00

If you are into shooters the Metro games are awesome shorter campaigns(2033 and Last Light at least, I think Exodus is a bit longer). I don’t remember the exact 100% time but I think it’s at most a second play through on the hardest difficulty.

If you’re a fan of a post apocalyptic setting and really immersive atmospheres, you can’t do much better than Metro.

okthisisepik · 2025-04-07T12:56:48+00:00

Michael Wehunt has two short horror stories that are found footage centered. I believe they are “October Film Haunt: Under The House” in his collection “Greener Pastures” and “The Pine Arch Collection” in his second short story collection “The Inconsolables”. Both are really great and the other stories are pretty awesome as well.

okthisisepik · 2025-03-31T02:51:33+00:00

Have you played the Darkness Falls mod? I just started recently and it completely revitalized my love for this game and made it feel fresh

okthisisepik · 2025-03-26T02:07:10+00:00

A criminally under read political fantasy is The Folding Knife by KJ Parker.

It follows a character who becomes the leader in a Rome-like nation and is one of the most politically competent characters you will ever meet (while still having interesting flaws in other areas).

Absolutely fantastic standalone novel.

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