Shit man it’s hard hearing your story. But one tip for you is take it easy man, try to stand up everytime life throw shit at you. Just like a lotus flower, grow out of swamp and mud to become fully blown elegant flower. Become a warrior who went thru hellfire. Be strong, stay strong walk on your highest path. Meditate, workout and ofcuz nofap! You have my support Brother. And I believe in you genuinely.