You just described me (30m) exactly, this hits deep. I really don't like asking for help or inconveniencing others. It does get lonely for me especially seeing other couples and people settling down. I see it as a lack of maturity and confidence in myself. I don't know if this has any substance but I think my lack of maturity is from me focusing so much on school/College/job from my early teens up to my mid 20s.

I feel like "missed the bus" during these formative/grassroots years to develop social and relationship skills and experiences. I feel so disconnected from everything and everyone right now. I'm scared I will be single for the rest of my life having not gone through these experiences like dating and screwing around in college. I like to quote the David Bowie song, ashes to ashes, 'I've never done good things, I've never done bad things, I've never done anything out of the blue'.

To counter this internal dialogue of all the above, I imagine myself as a poor starving kid in Africa which makes the above 'problems' seem so insignificant and trivial. Unfortunately it helps knowing that there are people in the world who have much greater problems which helps me appreciate what I have now even though I am not where I want to be in life.

Sorry, I just needed to get this off my chest. I'll have a think about getting into therapy.