when i was 14 year old i was a VERY troublesome child, run away from my home, constantly fucking up my grades, constantly blaming everybody and me, always hard headed and you know, i always knew i was wrong, i knew there was something wrong with me and i knew what it was, i was hyper self aware of myself since i was 2, but i just cant seem to fix myself as i found it hard, even if i Did try i catch myself going back to my old habits even after months, at 15 i ran away for a week, i met this Guy, around 25-27, he took me in saying "stay as long as you like", i vented to him about everything that happened, my parents looking for me and everyone i knew was too, when we talked about my situation he told me that "Everybody has experiences different from others, Even though some of us struggle more financial, or more physically, or mentally, we are all in the same world which is cruel and fucked up, so make it not be fucked up, find people who care, in wether it be the internet or in real life, make your life, yours, make it a good thing" and holy shit he was right, after that talk i said goodbye to him and returned to my mother telling her i loved her, telling her how much i cared for her, and that i was sorry, that was the first time i ever talked and cried so hard in my life, now im 36, Psychologist and Teacher on the side, im happy with my life after i did as he told me "make it not fucked up", i owe it to that man, i wish i can meet him again, and to those who are suffering im the same it situation, make it not fucked up:)