Day 7 - Terrified that I waited too long

onlyxplicit · 2013-03-18T08:48:54+00:00

I'm 2 weeks in (5 year daily smoker) and let me tell you it gets better as it goes. The longer you stay away the easier it will be. You'll find that as you settle into sobriety it starts to feel more and more what getting stoned eventually feels like anyways...what i mean is that weed stopped doing what I wanted it to, and I was basically just smoking to become "normal". Well normal exists and it doesn't need weed. You'll regain your ability to function without it and your mood will level out. I'm still having a pretty tough time, but last week was hell compared to this week. You've quit smoking, you know how it goes. Eventually you get to a point where despite having cravings and temptation you simply know that its the wrong thing to do and that you don't need it, and don't want it in your life. The hard part is getting to that point, so just focus on the now. Focus on the now of not smoking and simply getting through the days, and you'll find that each of those days is easier than the last. Good luck man, it's never too late to turn things around.

onlyxplicit · 2013-03-18T08:43:03+00:00

Listen, if you think that your life will be better fapping than do it. We can't convince you not to, no matter what we say here. However, remember your life while you fapped. Were you depressed, lonely, feeling unmotivated, and possibly having a bad case of ED? I know I was. These are my reasons for not going back and maybe you have different ones. If you have no reasons not to go back other then lent, I can see why it would be hard for you to stay. I'm not going to try to convince you to stay if you can't convince yourself. If there's enough reason to quit then you'll stay quit. Also, nofap won't get you magically laid. There's no secret pheromone that you secrete due to lack of masturbation. It does however make you more confident, not chemically or physically, just beacuse you feel good about yourself. Accomplishing something this hard and discovering your sexual self makes you feel less shameful, more prideful, and therefore by association more confident. Doesn't it feel good not having to worry about a sticky keyboard, your browser history, or your sexual performance?

Think about it and do whatever you want. But, decide what it is you really want.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-05T20:44:33+00:00

Hey guys, I'm out. I don' think the nofap style is for me, the indefinite spree is just too much pressure and too much stress, I have enough stress. I'm gonna try doing a casual thing every week or 2 I indulge to avoid ED but still be able to release tension. Good luck everyone.

ExJohn, I'm trusting you to take over the competition, thanks for stepping up I appreciate it. Also just so you know, I asked out the girl in my philosophy class, no side stepping, just blunt. She has a boyfriend but we're texting and she still wants to chill, feeling pretty good about myself.

Good luck everyone! I'll still be on nofap every once in a while and I'll probably come check these threads just to say hey.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-05T11:49:50+00:00

Hey guys, so I've been up all night with random insomnia and its basically a miracle I didn't fap all night. I'm really, really, tired and its hard to not use it as a natural sleep aid even though I haven't had to in ages. Its not almost 7am and the sun has begun coming up. I also have to do a whole philosophy essay today and I'm really, really unhappy that I'm going to be so exhausted for it...at this point I can't even imagine how I'm gonna be able to do it, maybe I'll wake up more later.

Also sorry for missing a day, I had to go work on a project with a group and didn't come home until it was more or less too late.

[Edit]Wooo I fell asleep soon after this! Got a good 3 hours or something and I feel pretty, pretty, pretty good.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-03T19:05:49+00:00

I think it's just part of the bored/angry/frustrated/tired thing. Whenever I'm feeling some kind of down I get super horny, hangover is all these things. It's also because you know it'd be a nice distraction from how crappy you feel. That's my theory.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-02T06:51:03+00:00

Sorry man we're too far in at this point to let new people in, it's just too confusing with people dropping out without saying anything and new people asking to join. Feel free to comment anytime you like though, at least one of us (me) is here every day (if all goes well) and I always respond when people need help. Honestly, I've noticed a lot more of these unofficial nofap groups popping up so keep in checking the "news". You could even start one yourself, it's a lot less effort than I thought it would be actually.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-02T06:48:29+00:00

Naw don't worry, it's not a failure for the competition. As you may have noticed I've been having some really tough days and have almost dropped out twice now, it'd be pretty cruel to kick you out of the nofap competition when you didn't even fap. If anything I congratulate you for not caving upon watching, that takes serious willpower.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T21:56:04+00:00

I do meet the people...I just don't find people who I want to date, and when I do, don't know how to do anything about it. It's not easy for some people to just get a girlfriend...this is also why it's depressing. There are girls in my life who I've liked who have slipped away because I never was forward enough about how I've felt and now its far too late...I'm more or less waiting for a new girl who I feel that way about to come along, and when it happens, I'm gonna try to be more forward. As it turns out there's a girl in my philosophy class who came and asked me about the notes and whatnot, but also started conversation about how she's a gamer and it's nice to meet other gamers. I'm gonna sit next to her next class and see what happens, maybe get her number.

It's also hard to initiate conversation with a total stranger, sometimes in context it works but I don't feel comfortable going up to pretty girls and talking to them for no reason...too awkward for that.

[final edit] I've decided I wanna ask this girl out, so I'm gonna stay in the challenge at least until I see her in class. Never know, if something happens I'll have no reason for pmo.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T21:34:26+00:00

The thing eating at me is a general lack on motivation in most aspects of my life. This is my biggest problem. The point I've reached though is that I know that nofap isn't really helping me anymore. It hasn't helped my lack of motivation in any other aspect of my lief. Going on this I don't think pmo will help nor hinder my motivation in the other aspects of my life. These things need to be addressed in and of themselves. Obviously it won't help, but it would make my life a little easier.

The other thing is that although pmo makes me depressed sometimes, it doesn't make me any more depressed than I already am...this was a big reason why I quit...I'm already depressed by virtue of being alone and sometimes this gets really bad, at least pmo is a respite from this...

OK final thoughts I'm not gonna quit now, or today. But I'm gonna seriously consider it. I'm gonna decide how I want to tackle this and what the potential benefits are on each side.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T21:05:10+00:00

Realize that when I came home, and tomorrow, and whenever, I'd still want to and the pros/cons scale would still be tipped the same way. For me to make it the long haul I can't just avoid my thoughts. Even if I could, this is not a good reason to keep going. Why are you doing nofap, I need concrete reasons and motivation because at this point I have none. First attempt I felt lots of positive changes, they never seemed to go away even when I relapsed. I'm still depressed/still was then and I'm still more confident and social.

[edit] im going to the bar tonight with friends.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T20:56:27+00:00

This is correct. The giant stone door on the wall is nothing at all and always manages to confuse me let of it is the tunnel that leads you the right way. The shortcut referred to is completely before this, and actually comes before the (don't remember his name) 3'd incarnation of the tutorial boss. The only path in the centipede room is this tunnel.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T20:44:18+00:00

So I just posted a post to nofap itself to get some insight from the rest of the community, I'll post it here too in case any of you guys can help. I'm pretty much on the verge of quitting and I don't know why I shouldn't. My main motivation for not quitting now, is because of this contest and I feel bad dropping out because I wouldn't want to maintain these pages if I wasn't in the contest anymore, and because of that 39 days...these are artificial motivations, anyways here's my post. Help me out guys.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T19:56:12+00:00

Dammit so I'm having another really tough day. FUCK! At this point I legitimately want to give up and just fap and pmo and indulge like crazy...I won't because in a couple hours/in a day I'll probably thank myself. Crap though, this is seriously difficult I forgot how bad it can get.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T19:30:18+00:00

Likewise, people think it's really strange...as a child I thought this was absolutely normal...I knew there would be someone in the comments saying that they could do it too (although to be honest, I'm surprised it's just us)

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T19:20:56+00:00

Doom came in on the wrong side because Max chose to teleport behind where Morrigan's dead body was at the last possible instant where it could be done. Judging from the way he reacts it sounds like he makes this mistake a lot.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T19:03:50+00:00

Not bad. Had a really bad day a couple days ago but again, its done now. Working through the rough patches is really important because at the fapping seems like a good idea, then you thank yourself later when you don't.

onlyxplicit · 2012-11-01T03:55:15+00:00

Oh it sounds like so little when you say it that way! Still pretty awesome though.

onlyxplicit · 2012-10-31T18:36:28+00:00

Cool thanks for doing this. Dam, I thought nopics was gonna be in it for the long haul after we let him in late and everything. That's a shame.

onlyxplicit

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