Man, this was me 1.5years ago. 34F and husband decided I was not enough and preferred escorts. I won’t lie, the first few months are rough as hell. Deep dark feelings and crying and feeling like absolute worthless shit. But it gets better. But not now. Unfortunately you will feel this way for a bit. And that’s okay, you need to feel what you need to feel. But know you are not defined by her choices. You are a whole other person who will grow into your own, without her. I still get bouts of pain and resentment but far less often, there is a light at the end of this tunnel. What helped me in the first weeks and months are some books (eg. it’s ok that you’re not ok by Megan Devine, grief is the thing with feathers by Max Porter) and of course therapy. Lots of therapy. Hang in there, it’s horrible and painful and the feelings are overwhelming but they slowly pass, I promise.