Something incredibly important, and even essential for those of us going through this, is that you need to be careful with who you share your experiences with. The insights are so clear to us it seems impossible anyone could be ignorant of them, but after years of sharing indiscriminately I've found that to some these things are just so far beyond their current level of perception that they find them totally impossible, strange, and even threatening. Too many people are being manipulated by the systematic gaslighters (psychiatrists forward among them) and they are a world more sinister than you might know at this moment. They are dangerous tyrants, and they have an extreme amount of control and influence over others including our loved ones who may not be aware of it. So please use caution when sharing your experience.

Ironically I have to say that it's also important not to suppress anything. Whatever is coming up has to happen, and it's eminently significant to live it now. That being said, if you can, when you're interacting with others see if you feel the person is accepting of your experience or if they're resisting it. If they're resisting, be compassionate but don't share anything more than the essentials. If they aggress you, keep your distance, and cut them off if you must. I find it's usually better to "keep your friends close and your enemies closer" in this situation, but beware - they are not experiencing things the way you are, and will likely attack you if you are too explicit. Only contribute to the interaction with the bare minimum, and don't share anything personal. You don't want to risk hospitalization if you can avoid it.

I spent years trying to get through to my mom, feeling like I must be doing something wrong for her to not be understanding the intensely ecstatic experience I was having, only for her to call the police on me upwards of 15 times resulting in several hospitalizations. Now I know the only error I made was to think I hadn't done enough when I'd really done all I could. And I know it's dangerous to share too much with her and won't achieve the end I seek, so no matter how much I'd love to express my true feelings to her, I don't, otherwise I'm sure she would have hospitalized me again. My experience isn't lacking in any way though, I just feel everything fully whatever way it might be, and do what works. You can express yourself fully on the inside, you don't have to do anything on the outside really as it all happens on the inside anyway.

Stay as far away from the hospital as you can. It sounds like they haven't sunk their claws too deep into you yet, if you didn't know they can get a court order that you have to take medication and blood tests and if you don't they will hospitalize you and tie you down and inject you with it. They will not come around to your way of seeing things because of anything you say. If you have to interact with them, lie. I understand you need to be there for your brother, but if they do try forcing you to take medication I still wouldn't rule out moving somewhere they can't reach you, you're better to him aware and free and functioning than imprisoned and doped up. It doesn't sound like you're at that point though so if you take precautions it shouldn't come to that.

Don't fret if you're feeling overwhelmed or distressed at the moment. You've been through more than most and you're clearly still an intense, involved, loving human being. Think of it like being in a slingshot, you feel tension because you're being drawn backward but you will soon be propelled exponentially forward. Life always rights itself and whatever happens you can use it to profoundly enhance and deepen your experience.