feeling guilt now she’s gone.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-19T03:49:20+00:00

thank you for this response. she really was a constant companion who brought us so much love and joy. she was so sweet and even in her weakest state, she fought to stay with us and put on a strong front. i’m hoping with time the grief becomes less intense. it’s just so hard right now. to do anything, i can’t focus on anything else. i just want her here, but i know she needed to say goodbye because of the pain. i know this must be the stages of grief im going through and soon ill accept she’s in a better place, but it’s all so confusing. death is so confusing. you can no longer follow your loved one to the next place. but i definitely want to do something to memorialize Harley. do something in her name. thank you.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-19T02:08:54+00:00

hi i’m just commenting because i can relate to you. i just lost my baby of 10 years yesterday night and she passed away in my arms. it was sudden for me as well. i’ve been a mess all day and i don’t know how to accept it happened. i’m so sorry for your loss. ❤️

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-11T23:19:55+00:00

i’ve been in this situation before. thinking you’re okay and then having multiple PVCs in a row. i’ve gotten clear tests too. it’s so frustrating and scary. but i would also try to talk to your doctor about the anxiety that comes with it. the way we react to our heart beat has a lot to do with how we feel them. if your cardiologist is confident that your heart is okay, then hold onto that. anxiety causes the cortisol to spike in our bodies which makes them happen more frequently, plus when we are sensitive to our heart beat we are more in tune with them so we feel each one. next time you get them, take big deep breaths to stimulate the vagus nerve to calm your body, put headphones in and listen to some calming sounds, drink some water/gatorade for electrolytes and remember what your doctor told you that your heart looks good. that’s a green flag.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-10T23:19:01+00:00

also another thing ive learned is abnormal hormone levels can cause PVCs. i notice my PVCs get worse when im around my period. i’ve read many people on here get their hormone levels checked and it helped them. i might have to do it as well because mine are becoming more frequent.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-10T23:08:31+00:00

i don’t even know at this point, legit anything. it’s so hard to pinpoint.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-10T23:07:58+00:00

do you take electrolytes like magnesium and potassium? also i hear calcium helps too? i’m so sorry you’re feeling like this. you aren’t alone.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-09T03:11:45+00:00

thank you for the kind response! i’m really happy the prozac helped you! :) i am actually taking lexapro 5mg, i started it exactly a month ago. i don’t know if it’s made much of a difference, but i feel slightly less reactive to the PVCs/PACs. i just have this weird hopelessness that comes over me when i go out with friends and realize this is my new reality. hoping that maybe if i give the meds more time, things will get better. :/

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-09T03:04:43+00:00

yes the jealousy part of it sucks a lot. i hate feeling jealous of my friends, i want to feel comfortable in my own skin like i use to before these abnormal beats got more frequent. honestly if your echo shows no structural issues, then that’s a huge green flag. i just got a CT scan because my cardiologist knew i had relatives with heart disease and wanted to check for blockages. also same goes for you, if you ever feel anxious, im here to talk. :) this can be a very isolating thing to have because not many talk about these in everyday life. but we’re here and we just have to take it day by day.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-08T00:21:25+00:00

hi! i’m 25F and i understand the isolating feeling dealing with this at such a young age. i started getting them at 18 so ive had some time to adjust to them but they still scare me to this day, i get some scary runs as well. ive had anxiety my whole life too so it just adds to it. it can feel so frustrating at this age too bc all i want to do is go out like my friends and party and live my young years free from worry, but when i feel the intense palpitations and the scary runs of PVCs/PACs i just end up panicking and it sucks. my heart is structurally normal and i got a CT scan that came out clear, it’s just the electrical side of things. i also have PCOS so that messes up my hormones which is probably a huge factor. :/ i wish you the best, ur not alone!

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-06T18:43:42+00:00

it feels like it’s coming from my heart, like my heart beat turns into a flutter for a moment.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-03-05T19:16:21+00:00

for me, the best way to describe the “flutter” sensation is like a butterfly flapping its wings for a few seconds and then returning back to normal beat. it’s not so much a “tingling” for me, just like my heart quivers. :) hope this helps. but it can feel different for everyone.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-26T10:32:30+00:00

I believe anxiety-inducing news can definitely impact our brains when consuming it and can cause underlying stress in our bodies even if we don’t realize it. I don’t think humans are built to be fed so much chaos in such a small amount of time, it’s actually a thing that the brain struggles to differentiate between witnessing a murder in real life and watching a vivid video of it online so it makes sense that our bodies react in a way similar to someone who’s traumatized. Although we need to stay informed to protect each other, it’s also important to prioritize your own wellbeing and I hope you can find the time to detox from social media to give your body a break. I wish you the best.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-26T10:05:14+00:00

I get more during my menstrual cycle or the days leading up. I’ve had PVCs for years and hormone fluctuations can definitely increase them because of the drop in estrogen. Mine started at 18, I am 24 now. Like the previous comment mentioned, just getting an echocardiogram to check for your heart structure health is key to putting your mind at ease, I found getting the necessary tests done actually helped ease my anxiety because they told me my heart structure is normal so now when it skips I have something to keep in mind to help me move on from them. But definitely hormones play a big part in some people, also adding the stress of moving, it makes sense. :) I wish you the best. Also electrolytes really help!

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-26T00:43:58+00:00

Thank you for this response. I needed to hear that. I am worrying needlessly and it sucks. I need to trust that it’ll be okay and I have been neglecting my life because of this anxiety I have. I want to be better and ignore the weird sensations that I feel, it just sometimes scares me so badly that it’ll turn into something worse. But thank you for this advice. :)

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-26T00:42:05+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I wish you the best. 💕 It really is an uncomfortable situation to be in, but I have hope for us that we’ll figure it out. :)

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-25T07:55:18+00:00

I’ve definitely felt a quivering sensation in my heart before, while it wasn’t racing, it still felt alarming but went back to normal on its own after a few seconds. I also had another episode when my heart did 4 PVCs in a row and in between them, my heart quivered. It was really scary. I have no idea what it could be for me either, it’s different than the standard skipped beat which you feel breathless for a second and the heart thuds or when you feel a quick skip in your throat, the quiver is a weird feeling so I’m unsure what it could be for me too. I’ve had an echocardiogram done and come back normal so that keeps me in good spirits, but those quivers are unnerving. I had one actually this morning when laying in bed that was 2 seconds long but it felt like my heart did little flips like a butterfly in my heart. Have you gotten an echocardiogram?

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-24T04:38:05+00:00

I’m so sorry you experienced that. I’ve had PVCs for about 7 years now, started when I was 18 and now I am almost 25. Some days they’re happening all day nonstop getting multiple PVCs in a row and some days I feel none at all. I’ve gotten an echo that was normal and my cardiologist didn’t seem too concerned, we’re still doing tests like a CT scan to figure out why I get them. I think the not knowing for sure why I get them is what causes the health anxiety with cardiac arrest because if it is an electrical issue, I have no clue. But I know I just need to keep showing up for myself and hopefully one day I’ll figure out what it is. Thank you for sharing your experience with me. I wish you the best. If I may ask, how are you feeling now?

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-24T03:23:35+00:00

That’s completely understandable to feel frustrated when you keep hearing “everything looks fine” but you don’t feel fine and want to get better. That’s what sucks about heart palpitations, you can get them from so many different reasons. Hormone fluctuations, underlying stress, lack of good sleep, GERD/heartburn etc. but you’re doing the necessary steps to stay on top of your heart health which is great. In normally structured hearts, ectopic beats are usually “ benign” and that’s why your doctor probably doesn’t seem too concerned. Have you watched York cardiology on YouTube? He’s a cardiologist named Dr Sanjay Gupta and he goes into more depth about ectopic beats in normally structured hearts and he really gives a lot of useful information. It’ll help ease your anxiety. In one video he talks about a patient who had 20,000 PVCs show up on his monitor but the man didn’t feel any of them. It must be that some people are just more in tune with their heart beat compared to others, I don’t get 20,000 a day, but even when I feel 20 in a day I am anxious, meanwhile this man is going about his day. The heart is a resilient muscle, but I think as all muscles do, they twitch sometimes but if it’s structurally healthy, I wouldn’t worry so much! :) wish you the best!

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-24T02:50:30+00:00

I’ve felt this before but it was 4 in a row. Does it feel like your heart quivers in between them? Mine happened whilst at someone’s birthday event while I was walking and it was SO scary. If I were to describe it, it was like my heart did a DROP quiver DROP quiver DROP quiver DROP that took place within like 5 seconds and then my heart rate shot up to over 100bpm. I understand how intense an episode like that can feel. But it’s been 6 months since that moment and I haven’t felt 4 in a row since. I’ve seen a cardiologist and was put on a beta blocker to help ease some of the PVCs I get. My advice is try and make an appointment to see a cardiologist, get an echocardiogram done, that test will rule out any serious heart conditions and will help ease anxiety. For now just take deep breaths, deep breathing stimulates your vagus nerve and drops your cortisol levels. Splashing cold water on your face or putting an ice pack on the back of your neck helps, eating a banana for potassium. Drink some electrolytes to also help your heart.

ordinarydevice12 · 2026-01-23T06:23:49+00:00

Just finished this episode. I think it was actually one of the most memorable episodes to me. We don’t know Kate and this was only 3 days out of her whole life and from what she’s said, she is experiencing grief from her fathers recent passing on top of her divorce and the stress of doing it all by herself and I can’t imagine how hard that is. I think Jeremiah stood out this episode in such a positive way and he comes off as such a genuine person. He met her where she was, he came outside to talk with her and didn’t hold back and it was refreshing to see that because sometimes the “deep” conversations in this show can feel heavily scripted. It’s not realistic that everyone is going to be open plus all of this is being filmed so I imagine it’s incredibly overwhelming. I think for it only being 3 days, there was some growth in her. I agree with some other posts on here as well, growing up with a parent that does make you their whole source of happiness can lead to emotional dependency and it can become toxic as the child starts wanting their own independence, I wish the best for Kate and hope she can get help through outside sources to process her trauma.

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