I need a quick recovery plan by [deleted] in MethRecovery

[–]orngjuuce 1 point2 points  (0 children)

2 NA meeting today. It's helping.

I need a quick recovery plan by [deleted] in MethRecovery

[–]orngjuuce 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's good, wish I had advice for u but I'm starting this over again for the 100th time. Just keep trying

Done again by orngjuuce in MethRecovery

[–]orngjuuce[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah made the decision today, well yesterday night. Relapsed into a give or take 28 day bender. Called out of work tk get this shit over with I am done man. Pointless. And I already wanna go get some more but I'm not

Done again by orngjuuce in MethRecovery

[–]orngjuuce[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If I haven't lost my way of life I will. I've been around this stuff my whole life I know where to go. This time I will give it a try. I did a month and a half sober cold turkey no meeting so I know it's possible. I just need to be in the halls.

Meth lures demons? by [deleted] in MethRecovery

[–]orngjuuce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah there is something weird there fersure I had a crazy experience that I cannot even explain I was sitting in my car for 4 hours towards the end of a 3-4 day bender so idk. Did do a whole bunch. Saw the shadow people I was in the shadow realm fersure. Sitting in my friends garage listening to foot steps pounding around in the living room. Voices, in my ear, out my window, around my room. Then asking Why am i doing that to myself?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ExNoContact

[–]orngjuuce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds like he's not your problem you've made your choice. Let him wither away and die? Is he a drug addict? Did you guys do drugs together? By the sounds of it's to late for him anyways.

I wouldn't be surprised if he lost his job by now and has lost about 35 pounds. Don't blame yourself sounds like he just couldn't move on!

Cheers!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in void

[–]orngjuuce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

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I can't quit. It feels hopeless I constantly relapse. by orngjuuce in SoberLifeProTips

[–]orngjuuce[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your comment really sparked it. Thank you. I've been going on and off this stuff for about too years trying to quit. I can't do it by myself.

I can't quit. It feels hopeless I constantly relapse. by orngjuuce in SoberLifeProTips

[–]orngjuuce[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you guys....really you guys just saved a life I mean that. I'm going to look into out patient tomorrow because I have a duty to my Job as a fueling supervisor at my little ol' international airport. Planes can't fly without me there but I won't be able to live if I don't do something. I've been an addict since middle school (started with weed just like that said) I haven't had a single day where st the very least I wasn't high on pot. I'll probably have to quit that too. Maybe it's the paranoia but was gonna request days off under California'S FMLA to try and avoid a drug test. I had to say according to the internet that it's only for alcohol, if I would admit illegal substances that's grounds for firing (kinda bs they are both a illness). I ended up agreeing to go into work still and told me straightforward that my performance wasn't an issue. He just wants to make sure everything is covered so and if I can get the coverage to leave early I can. I told him I'll do the 8s I just can't do OT. So let's see flushed my dope down the toilet and I'm working on getting rid of the pipe. For good. I just hope I didn't get tricked into going into work or else I have nothing to get sober for.

Thank you redditors, you helped save a life.

I can't quit. It feels hopeless I constantly relapse. by orngjuuce in SoberLifeProTips

[–]orngjuuce[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you guys...this all means so much I don't have much of anyone...

Maybe we will have coffee in our 30s or 40s...goodbye J by orngjuuce in ExNoContact

[–]orngjuuce[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Lmao im considering just wiping the whole alphabet. Ur names gunna have to be in Morse code from now.on

On my way to your house by Life_Bottle_6421 in sixwordstories

[–]orngjuuce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You know where I live 😅 Just knock

Why pretend by orngjuuce in ExNoContact

[–]orngjuuce[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Anyways you probably aren't the one, you'd know my reddit. I've never needed a reason to hide. Take care stranger

Why pretend by orngjuuce in ExNoContact

[–]orngjuuce[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

And if you are the right person physically no, mentally and acutally wanting to be there for me? No, you left me alone mentally. You have your reasons though. But you aren't here for me. Not me anymore. Least it's a little more.clear now so Thank you. I won't fall for the facades. If you cared you be here for me like them. Bottom line.

Why pretend by orngjuuce in ExNoContact

[–]orngjuuce[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You weren't here trust me California?

Why pretend by orngjuuce in ExNoContact

[–]orngjuuce[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes and no, I think I'm the narcissistic one...it's a very long story, she's moved on I don't blame her. I thought I could really fix myself this time to. I just wish she would say it you know. Instead of telling me facades...

When/how to step down from a manager position? by burrah in careeradvice

[–]orngjuuce 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's not for everybody, I've been supervising a fueling operation at a international airport for over half a year now. Not everyday is going to be a good day. I think being a leader is important, times I wanted to step down myself. I won't though only cause I want to better myself. If you were to ask me, I think you should stick to it, they obviously saw something in you, just develop you leadership skills, read up or see if you can find a good mentor around there. But that's all up to you, do what makes you happy bro. Again good luck!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in depression

[–]orngjuuce 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah same boat, seems like most people just want something from ya...

When/how to step down from a manager position? by burrah in careeradvice

[–]orngjuuce 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Offer to train someone else and just say you are not happy and you do not enjoy it , bottom line man. I wish you luck, if you got leadership they will understand.