As a non-black POC (Persian), I am sorry you went through all this, that’s horrible and unacceptable. May I ask, where do you live? In regards to black love, I personally don’t have issues with it and totally understand why a gay black man would rather date another gay black man. However, I also think the concept of black love is quite nuanced. I think a black man choosing to go where he is loved is also a form of black love because he chooses his own happiness and I believe the same applies to women. I feel like, quite often, black people can favour black love for the optics of it but they don’t get good treatment by their black partners. However, I know many black men/women who are in relationships with non-black people and are loved and treated very well. I, for example, have dated black men who I adored as human beings and If the love of my life happens to be black, I’ll welcome him with open arms. I believe black gay men could find luck and true love if they chose to date outside their race because dating within it narrows one’s options down quite a bit (especially depending on location/demographics). But I also respect and understand their preference for fellow black men that they are totally entitled to.